The light of ambition and the blind and petty false light

Once when I was living with my dad he had put up a fake test designed to lock me out of my room in a contrived manner to make it look like I needed to learn my limitations. I discovered that this was the false light of Lucifer that sought to elevate the petty into something "sacred" and limited ambition that allowed me to see things clearly. The darkness showed me where the life and death lessons were so in that moment I knew his lessons were fake motivated by jealousy and pettiness. That was clear to me because I was experiencing moderate success in my life and success makes clear the small and petty. Light often pretends it changes the world and makes it better but often it just makes people blind and stupid. The lack of ambition and dependence on false light is why many people are in spiritual prison with no hope whatsoever. The fake humility and willful blindness and false light and lack of ambition. That's how the church and some A.A. ideologies became a breeding ground for losers and unnecessary pain because of the fear of ambition and the dependency on light that lies.