My Story

I hope that you noticed that just because I laid the foundation and put the thoughts in there it didn't make you a puppet. You had the courage and will to survive and you survived. You recognized good thoughts and was teachable. That takes away your ability to have a god complex but it also makes you coherent with the real world, which is better I think. *Jamie: How did you stay coherent? Me: because me and others recognized that Jesus as he was was just an oppressive loop that exploited the working class by taking the most talented working class people and strung them along and then knocked them down again after they outlived their usefulness. But me and Dr. Neasman discovered we could create a feedback loop where the Snoop Dog gangster archetype is the person who explores and maps out the space that authority can't and then is socialized once the establishment can be willing to be brought up to speed and then the Snoop Dog archetype is socialized and included in the establishment while he gets to stay the same while losing old bad habits and gaining new habits. What remains the same about this archetype is that he always is able to take it easy because he always has his finger on the pulse of reality so that he can work smart not hard. And in that loop I found an ethical cheat where people could teach me my own thoughts because being socialized made me able to be in Harmony with others socially and accountable and free.. It's me as Set. An ethical corruption that make me coherent with reality. Being teachable is an interesting method to be ethically corrupt don't you think? But that isn't entirely accurate. I did send a thought to Shakespeare about linking insanity and love with the poem "madness love, love madness. On an island lies a single flower surrounded by the lonely intensity of the deep." And that had Shakespeare create Romeo and Juliet which proved that the basic nature of the universe was unfair because it outlawed simple love but the world couldnt exist without respect. That came from an experience I had as a teenager. My friend had accidentally disrespected some gangs and that experience was the first scene of "did you bite your thumb at us." And he asked "is the law on my side if I say aye." The streets aren't arbitrary and freedom is found in that. Jamie this use of my experience my Shakespeare created an independent feedback loop where thoughts created from me were dissociated from me as a person and I had to be taught and brought up to speed. That was our experience in 2017. We tied our souls together with love and respect and that's why we can't hurt each other. And I've created new experiences from your experiences that I expect you as a person need to be taught with the help of my friends. That should buy us both some time and freedom to just relax. Being able to go to college and learn how to fit in a schedule and write assignments on time created new experiences and an infinite number of new feedback loops that makes me normal forever. This goes for people I placed at Kroger Law and Order and all types of places where I can learn from those different feedback loops to my suggestion about placements of cloning using spacial coordinates that made me see eye to eye with Janus perfectly. That cloning effect bends the old lessons of those on the fringes that can use puzzles to make people like you independent and coherent by bending those energies into coherence with reality. This is why I'm not a partial house. I'm in the world everywhere. That's why I can go anywhere.

The Anti-fisher Ana Malle

Ok. The pornstar Anna Malle had been what had kept women too scared to mess with me. Just to be clear Anna Malle I need to have the lessons of normal sexual interaction and I don't need that protection anymore. Let normal women in please that'll keep the fishers out. For those who don't know my history I was in a fake Christian school designed for human trafficking. But that wasn't permissible unless I failed the incredibly challenging spiritual tasks I was given. But I passed them all. If one wants to see her entity I put it in Indiana Jones with the woman who played Elsa. She said to me when I had a low self esteem crying fit that "It just shocks me how you pass every test" and the way she leaned in meant that as a 14 year old if I had kissed her she would have committed statutory rape, but I didn't because I had low self esteem and lacked the experience to recognize that and act on it, but I also had a deep inner sense of right and wrong and just didn't do it. That taught me that as a child I had a responsibility to not corrupt adults and she rewarded me by protecting me my whole life. She's the female entity that rejects all children whove tried to fish for me as simply unworthy because if they were worthy they wouldn't have tried to fish for me. The part in the Indiana Jones movie is the Holy Grail and she said "How dare you kiss me!" And then kissed him back meaning I read the situation correctly but I had character. That's a lesson kids should learn. If you protect adults from any indue sexual energy you'd have a loyal friend for life and not just be a burden to someone who'd abandon you first chance they got. In fact the song "Creep" is Ana malle's entity of her redemption and devotion to my redemption and her own. And so that's why I have no sympathy for kids who know better but don't do better. My ethic is better for the world than what any of those pathetic kids have to offer.

New

https://youtu.be/_E2dVuYjLi0 It wasn't your selfishness that got you to lash out. It was your selflessness. If you could have been honestly selfish with your own goals you could have dissociated appropriately and endured and gained respect. I just went through some enduring factors myself and that was my experience. But much respect sir. Weak moments are something everyone's had. In the lack of human connection people tend to crave an ataboy or a pat on the back a smile or a laugh and if one is lonely resentment and that lack would be filled with the anger of the earth with no protection. But if you pay yourself then your intelligence and satisfaction would keep the power of yourself in your own hands. However, since his name was Kramer on the show and the Jigsaw character was also Kramer, if you're in the deep dark you'd have to allow the anger of the earth in you while not assuming responsibility for a land in pain while doing the thing as responsiblely and ethically as possible. That's the proof that no wisdom is a one size fits all except for breathing as a human being. For example mentoring Sarah Silverman out of the spiral was what kept his humanity intact in a character analysis of the show. So there's always a selfishness that has to be entirely one's own at all times. *Jamie mentoring wisdoms to others when one is pure hearted tends to benefit me when I've been vulnerable. Notice I treated you with the same pure hearted love Jigsaw gave to Sarah with a clear ethic and a clear finish line. Notice Sarah never escaped the Jigsaw house she just got a better room and kept me sane. On a Law and Order episode I helped give her a lesson that sheltered her from Jigsaw games forever. She was a detective on the Law and Order series and while investigating some rich kids she learned that others tend to try to be like them by spending money and trying to be cool, and that's the ethic of all insular families which is why it's impossible to join anything except as a loner who makes other loner friends one on one. A lesson you never had, sadly. Me I was born in a family on the streets. The outward appearances of meanness were guarded by Jesus cleverness and the inner lessons of happiness and respect kept us free and my future connection to this deli gave me leverage and independence and the loner lessons gave us all universal adapters so none of us are stuck with anyone.

Compassion

"Some people would unfold quite nicely if only you were interested in them." ---Sylvia Plath What is that you were trying to say? That everyone seems to want to be seen? That like a flower everyone would unfold like a red and white rose if only some rain had sprinkled. Is that all you are, a sprinkler system that tends to sprinkle at designated times? Cha Cha Cha every 9 am every morning. Some people have things to do. Some would see the sun if only you'd ignore them. You don't have to be held in place like a 9 am sprinkler with a perfect timing type cha. I told you in a private public interview that to be in the right groove you had to look like a timing autistic perfect timer. But you don't have to do that anymore. You can have reminders of it like a Jurrasic Park mask glory badge of honor, While you're living your normal life getting groceries. With nobody bothering you either. You thought I was going to say something mean or cutting, but that's not me that was the spikes we had to dodge that seemed to split the earth. I had to say water things that washed through to get to safe ground. So did you in your own way. Perhaps if I forgive you and you forgive yourself, then that type of invisibleness can return to both of us and others too. Whether you forgive the land you walk on is up to you in your own time, but I've felt your forgiveness in action I hope.

Marriage and infidelity

This is sweet, but in my experience there's always a circumstance where anyone is capable of cheating because there's the vibe and the integrity of someone's back room. That need to have integrity in one's back room doesn't go away just because you're married. That's why marriages are just a hell when that's not acknowledged or respected. Two people just codependently crashing into each other day in and day out is the consequence of avoiding that issue on a pathological scale. And then there's going to be a part of a man or a woman but a woman especially that would almost cry out for a pheromonal touch of a specific type of man or woman that satisfies that starving part of her. That's the inevitable result when integrity of a person becomes less important than the integrity of a marriage https://youtu.be/yC2IzWmxJnU

Freedom

Thank you mister Smith and in honor of your last name I thought I'd post this link. https://youtu.be/M5n4mJkVivs The logical argument that Dr. Peterson might have a flaw in if I were to adapt Dr. Quentin Smith's argument is that a story implies an ending. An answer to "why is there something rather than nothing" but if everything is infinite then the only logical answer is a previous moment caused it to exist. If I were to combine that with my suggested argument then stories presume an unanswered question, which is that human beings are important in God's plan, but this also implied that human beings weren't important intrinsically and this would imply some type of moral nihilism for God, which would be that everything merely exists so that he would survive. A presumed Felt Meaning of the World implies an immediate context for when human values interact with time/space values. This also implies a steady state of relationships that continually steady and self affirming so that short term fixes like voodoo and beliefs are no longer relevant and truth as a weapon becomes obsolete because a truth field of human relationships keeps things self affirming and the beauty and can be naturally accepted and the garbage naturally discarded by human beings in relationship to their own individual autonomy. This has profound implications for the relevance of Jungian psychology except as a method for diagnosing maladaptive skills at navigating human relationships or in climbing out of very deep dark time/space black holes but even in those cases it's only possible to climb out if one was healthy to begin with, strangely. Common sense allows for temporary messes at the expense of order to foster healthy relationships in Jungian terms and so that's an above below bridge so to speak.

Atheism: A Philosophical Justification

I like what Dr. Peterson said about framing a debate in a manner someone else would agree with. If I were to define atheism as a philosophy is that my mind is sacred in being able to behave courteously, respectfully to be able to see reality and to act on my own behalf at the preference of myself at the expense of an authority if my survival and an authority's survival is in contradiction then I must do what I can to harmonize both interests but should negotiations fail I have a moral responsibility to value my life before the legitimacy of an authority. In that my definition isn't just factual in whether God exists or not but it's pivitol on the Problem of Evil that presents a logical Argument from Evil that logical refutes theism as a mode of being rather than a factual claim. If God exists and is in part of a divine plan, then one would have to defer to authority and structure when one's own well being was in question then one had to submit to suffering in the face of mysterious circumstances beyond control of the individual as a moral agent. But if I am an atheist which by my definition I am, then God is logically incompatible with living a good life. And that's why I only live harmoniously with myself first and human beings as a close second as far as I respect their autonomy and my own and my priority to me first is in relationship to my own autonomy first which is an intimacy factor not heirarchy. This naturally excludes God if God isn't a human being capable of human relationships. I borrowed Michael Martin's title for his book.

Lestat Claudia Louis and Armond

The four vampires here are a fascinating archetype of change through relationships even though they themselves stay the same. I gotta go to work so I'll make this quick: Lestat and Claudia by my reading were bound by hope. "And if i cut my hair again?" "Then it will grow back again." This is something any mortal family could have said to each other. And now that clever crashing was a thing, one can infer that was an accomplice type situation. Louis seemed outside of it. Unaware of the intimacy around him and self absorbed in his own grief. But what if that wasnt entirely true. It was a null hypothesis that put him on the outside of relationships that seemed to give him a broad view from a place of strength. When Claudia panicked about him leaving he said with some reluctance that "it will be all right" with what one knows about rebirthing across oceans and hell avoidance, it seems clear that burning was her only escape. Sometimes youre just screwed and she lacked the strength for that but Louis didnt. Lestat was also dissociative, playful and made hard decisions too through his weakness. In fact making decisions that are normally hard from a place of weakness makes one strong. If one has no choice but to be what one is what is there left but to respect the choices of others and to be playful. For example, Lestat didnt make Claudia. Louis did. Lestat fed Claudia when it was clear that she would die or live. One of those decisions that proved that to be good one had to be on the same unethical plane as everyone else. Not always true but for him certainly. That there was a ceiling made being playful the only way to let good in. In the periphery were good memories of shared experiences. Thats what people crave, but without knowing the shape of the thing you cant get that back. Which left Armond. He was the police officer who was mad at Lestat for making him the prison guard of fools. But even though it was wrong to do that out of feeling, one cant blame Armond for being happy for escaping that and havinf Louis as a companion. Thats the difference between yhe book anf the movie. Justice is harmony that splits unjust blocks that allows humans to be human. The guide was pain. But thats why those Vampires could never repeat that exactly. It was done perfectly the first time. Youd need a silver Tongue relationship skill that would make feeding on blood obsolete. Vampires would have to not be vampires to be reborn as vampires. a contradiction. Thats death. Death meaning the character flaw of feeding on people would have to stop. Luckily there is a vampire myth precedent. A man fell in love with a female Saint. When he couldnt pray to God he prayed to me inside him the serpent and made a vow that earth is all there is to look forward too. And his love transformed him into a vampire. That means that Im the true father of Vampire consciousness.

What is new What is old What is Borrowed What is Blue

Narcissus for himself himself forsoke Died to kiss his shadow in the brook. ---Shakespeare Venus and Adonis But thus is the temptest of what thou sworn: For of love of thee is why love should scorn: Men for men and women for women: A cowardly end Lucifer would reap them all: If only one cist or Nariccissi Did forsake the flower to see me a man. That which would shame Medusa is a man and a woman who were willing to die in the brook. That is the middle ground of what it means to be free. For what once was paid is done indeed. What the Sun had risen islands of men and women are the clear cowards now, as Love and Respect is what it is. All a man or woman is is the reach of one's shore relationship awaited like Calypso who would return. Being human is what my faith is in. Otherwise it would require everyone to gain consensus for one person to choose to survive which would be absurd. For that is the nature of cowardice.