Thank you

But that experience was a beautiful simple friendship: anger at the way the world habitually betrayed simplicity: Anger at everyone: and then the next moment I suddenly realized it was just me and nature and that revolution was an illusion: and then I found a bottom of ugly sane curse water that actually preserved my strength and my sanity that I used ugly tears to keep my humanity: Earlier I played the song "Dumb" by Nirvana that allowed me to forget the best part of my soul in a room with Jamie: she then dumped the best part of my soul back to me once I made it through the skinny dark doorway so that I made it whole and safe on the other side: Earlier I had played with Claudia and Sylvia Plath: I made the point that the reason Claudia died and left Vampire land was she asked me through Lestat how to escape the dark. The events that unfolded showed her how: Jamie did the same thing: it put all the entities that were around and seemed to possess me in perfect eye to eye level with me so it was just me again that also put Jamie in commitment to bringing us both to a better place. It's not that there was no planning. It was just so organic that the word "plan" doesn't do it justice. And then there was my agreement with Macy to bring consistency as an ethic into her spiritual matrix so that when I cleansed and sealed her vacuum flaw of not being able to compartmentalize because she can compartmentalize now, that the pathology of pretend robots who are just actors and actresses have an obligation to be normal so as to make blame impossible: her debt was so large in terms of wealth it seemed impossible to pay that debt that would set her free but I paid that debt. Sarah Silverman was also in the background who was on my side because I paid her debt and so that mind fucked Jamie because she felt like she had no friends and no one on her side when that became clear but then realized that people do love her but that the problem was bigger than any one person. Courtney Love kept me from saying anything that would have jeopardized our safe travel and Marilyn Manson made sure to keep my discernment of the toxic resentment Jamie was suffering from. Michael Zuvic gave me space 12 years prior to include the song Anuerysm by Nirvana to keep her toxicity at bay and pay the music debt she needed. Dr. Neasman gave me room and comedy and fought with me by using school romance and comedy on the sly that kept me normal. Black women saw I was being spiritually poisoned with racist porn and used my vacuum wisdom to make me an expert on deception to turn that corner and were loyal to me when I was in a near spiritual coma and I used that to travel into the future and gain Lucifer's help to show humility to my step brother by showing how a singularity can stand still and not simply be found: Sylvia Plath took me into the clear view and showed me no matter how angry I was I had to include everyone in a healthy alignment to make it through the door: black women showed me how ceiling wisdom and wall wisdom allowed me to block generational curses so I could stay ethical and not judge anyone: Jamie's daughter sent me wisdom and her entity so as to protect my daughter and to keep me safe while she blessed my friendship with her mom by singing Chris Isaak's "Wicked Game": My family reunited with me and helped me stay normal amidst all of that: Dr Peterson used my intellectual wisdom to make the world better: My mother also who helped me out so much that I wouldn't have made it through without my mother specifically or my dad who also gave me room and supported me unconditionally. Only family can do that. The list of help I've received goes so much further that I don't have time to name everyone who helped and contributed: Remember Jamie when you said I needed to be less arrogant and accept help? That should inspire a dry laugh now I bet lol. God also helped me very much in ways that allowed me to temporarily separate from him with courage and then brought me back to him as his equal. That was a big one. He let me center my cleverness in his presence that guaranteed my reunion with him that superceded all lesser forms of cleverness. That paid my debt to the witch known as clever so as to bring me and her to the surface that bridged two sides at once to flip the world into it's proper orbit. Denzel Washington also put all my experiences and insights into acting which separated me from him and taught me that accountability with black women protected me from his bitterness and resentment because his sense of tyranny was he felt it wasnt his job to keep everyone in line and by going around him it actually made the world a better place. Difficult personalities tend to be difficult because of feeling burdened and not listened too. Many people since have helped me too. An anonymous psychologist friend also has supported me as a friend and i feel compelled to respect his privacy by not naming him specifically but would feel ungrateful if i didnt at least mention that without him in my corner i wouldnt have made it. Obviously i didnt do this myself. I played my part. If i forgot to name you its not because im not thankful. The kist of gratitude is too big to list everyone and stay sane so please trust and know i love you. But Matt Hosler please organize the board game thin again. That would be awesome.