What I like about love

What is love someone might ask. Is it Julia or Christine or Samantha? Is it Courtney Kurt or John Paul or Ringo or George? No? Is it a trip to the grocery store? A trip to the bank or to the coffee shop bar or meeting? No. Indeed. none of that is love. Love isn’t a person place or thing. There’s nothing one can identify objectively and say this is love. That is indeed why a Marxist vision can’t identify love. And yet I know love when I see it. But living it? It requires knowing it’s real while letting others take their trips to the grocery store and to the bank. Because one thing love needs is an ability to choose. To be able to say yes or no to a person place or a thing. Love has dignity, but it isn’t dignity. Love has life but it isn’t life. Love is nothing. Love is everything. Love is the literal butterflies that follow me around as I wrote a beautiful poem that friends at a coffee shop shared with me and let me have a quiet life free. Perhaps that’s what the cliché means to have butterflies in my stomach when I’m in love. It took the right wet nurses to bring that love to it’s proper dancing light that love me and likes me to be free. And yet life goes on in spite of butterflies because shopping and family dinners and board games and paying bills and just laying about still is real. Even more real than the subtle love that cherishes it, even though without love none of that would be real. Love doesn’t always insist on being seen. Love only cherishes life so that every bird can sing and every butter can fly. Right now my two favorite Beatles songs is “Because” on Abbey Road and “For the Benefit of Mister Kite” on Seargant Pepper. My favorite Gwen Stefani song is “Getting Warmer” on her Truth album that reminds me of the Beatles song “You Never Give Me Your Money” which is actually better than the Beatles song because the love of one woman is more meaningful than the love of four men. But I can’t let her light separate me from the world and so my self respect is better than all the songs put together like love couldn’t exist without my self respect, at least not in the same way that can shine for me. It doesn't matter how beautiful a woman's love is for me, I'll eventually need some time alone or go shopping by myself and the way I carry myself is something a woman can nurture but she can never be that for me. Ask any man who tried to be a woman he's not. I won't ask any of those men because I know the answer. Sometimes it's too late to do better when you're already two steps behind. I never could have known what self respect was if love didn't nurture me like a twin.

What I got from "The Black Cat" by Edgar Allen Poe

I like to write about the beauty and perhaps the desire to stay on the surface is why I’ve written so much beauty. Edgar Allen Poe was considered brave for normalizing deep human psychology and took the vein of demons and made it normal human pathology, which it is when stripped of its superstitions and fears. What he did was show the choice of internal psychology is a simple choice between control and fear. The normative feelings tend to be glossed over with mythology if one doesn’t take control of one’s own thoughts. By stripping the characters of appeals to a sense of myth Poe reveals the normal thoughts that lead a person from a normal mindset to a corrupt mindset. The Black Cat is that poem. His temperament changed for no reason and discovered that he hurt the black cat for no other reason than because the cat was good to him. And then when another cat came to torment him he killed his wife and locked her into the wall next to him. When the authorities came looking and found nothing he joked about how sturdy the wall is with joy. The cat meowed. The authorities opened the wall and you know the rest. The moral of the story is that it’s a man’s nature to be clever with an imagination. A woman is better off nurturing a man’s cleverness and imagination and not stuff it in to domestic life. The Freudian observation is that’s the woman’s fear manifesting her own fear out of fear by trying to control a man’s instinctive natural power. Trying to make a man into something more unbalanced in loving makes a perverse beast out of a man. The implication is that it’s better to do this or that. But that’s only a sense of control. The story itself implies an inevitability that’s only the man himself. His thoughts his words his deeds. His imagination that suggests an inevitability. He as a man fulfills two natures of a man. His cleverness at not being caught and his desire as a man for justice and truth that caused his own capture. His cleverness justified himself, which is all a man’s cleverness could only do. The amoral nature of the world itself suggests a lack of innate morality to nature. The joy of his cleverness that seems to see how inevitable his life was, and his relief at being captured. Perhaps the real tale is an inverted irrelevance of female psychology to his life, and by implication, the irrelevance of female psychology to nature. I say that because nature herself seems to have a dissociation between her brutal thoughts and precise calculations of natural inevitability, and her kindness and love that reflects what she wants for people. Like a divine dark feminine seeking a male partner because the ladies in her life only tried to control her by assuming her darkness to be male in origin, when in fact it wasn’t. It’s the sign of a female intelligence of a woman looking for a male equal co-conspirator to design and harmonize her own power and darkness to justify light properly, which seems to lack an intelligence, with her own. That’s what I got from it anyway. Nature is a dark energy of inevitability that seeks to steer inevitability to a slight different course that’s benevolent and loving to nature so that the dark thoughts don’t have to incorporate natural law with her own intelligence. Because my life has been naturally inevitable, I offered my services to that dark feminine with courage and integrity with the promise that we would justify light around our natural selves to keep us and others as safe and in perfect integrity as naturally possible. I knew then I’d never go blind. My dark eyes would stay open and I would stay strong forever. God though is another type of intelligence that’s power. I made sure to be friends with him first. Power is a smart thing that’s better than eyes. I leveraged myself into my own soul so that I could always have equal conversations with God. God revealed his natural wisdom to me, power to power. He knocked jewels down so as to provide stepping ladders for others. But God can’t do that forever, otherwise he’s just a jerk and not a ladder. Leverage always is more powerful than power. Because leverage can have a conversation and human to human of equal power and grace can solve problems together. Power itself does nothing but hurt only to protect itself. But the dark feminine intrigues me too. It's a softness that uses "dark glass" charm to keep others at bay. That's sincerity that avoids pretentiousness which is a wonderful soft power that I've made my own to make my life easier. Then that intelligence told me that's always been my power and she kept that ability safe for me until I was able to find a strong undeniable power that could justify dark softness.

Letter: Poet friend to Leonardo Da Vinci

Letter: Poet friend to Leonardo Da Vinci I cannot say sir what it may be that you consider a painting to be a better thing than poetry, or by extension, why a painter is of a higher calling than a poet. For obviously I cannot agree, being a poet myself. An art tends to reflect the wonder and character of an artist, but since thou made a comparison thus, it can only mean that my world as a poet far exceeds thy painting. You consider poetry to be linear, but I'm not linear. When I write I write a tapestry that exceeds five dimensional observations. I write about a grateful butterfly experience with flowers and the goddess Flora allows a butterfly to fly with me at my most beautiful moments, but your cynicism of the world to me suggests that even the most beautiful painting can't compensate for the smallness of life around you. Again, if you had not made that comparison I would justly assume your wonder as a painter to be just as beautiful as mine as a poet, but you confessed that your art did not. Are you that linear boring personality that hates life that needs to create as a distraction? Because that's not true of me as a poet. I see a world that's beautiful around me that reflects the beauty within and I make it more so, without daring to insult the beauty by pretending the world of God. Nature is nature. I am a part of that equation and I design a small beautiful room that's always me no matter the occassion. But the painting to you is only a window for what you decided would never be for you, but only you left yourself out of that room. The words only seem linear because to you you can't see the 5d puzzle piece that the words allow the life of God to match me, all you see is a true arrow that's the nothingness but waste. A waste that you believe to be all but feel it a service to God to pretend otherwise though you made that wasteful room with humility as a God to replace the breathing life of God that is available to all naturally. God's breath of life is a free gift, and in that image I design perfect compatibility life that God has given me. If you only knew how to speak outside of a pretense to paint perhaps you'd also know the relief of new sea air like me. And again, the comparison was yours to volunteer. If not I'd assume you as beautifully awed by nature as me.

What Ted Hughes did for Sylvia from my perspective

He presented her a picture car of a person, forget man or woman but person, who values his or her own life first. He couldn't save Sylvia Plath. She was a sinking ship. But he did present her occult science that allowed her to survive and make it. What i figure is that since everyones a sinking ship in essence thats all anyone can do for anyone really. My time as an English major tutor taught me I couldn't teach anyone anything unless they had a preexisting talent and a willingness to learn from someone else. That allows for gentle clicking practice without jet propulsion crashes and allows discernment.

New memory like Glory tidings

A garden is a flower memory. It doesn't seem to matter what the circumstances were, The whiteness of a rose still blends with green. I identified with a white rose because I'm white. But there are plenty of roses that grow from the ground. Purple, red, and perhaps even some shades of blue. But what I remember is my desire to grow a garden. Like right now I feel an urge to buy another rose for my garden. There seems to be too large a gap between rose bushes and I'm doing my best to plant several rose bushes that can one day grow into one big rose bush. I like a memory of writing. When I was in a poetry class at JSU, or Jackson State University for those who don't know my history, where a pen ink lines a page says something. The long pages and sentences that stretch out into my blog of personal whiteness like a blank slate is how free I always am. As I write, I notice there are three sentences that came from one experience. But interestingly, one sentence in the last went further than the others. But this one didn't have too. Because I have to rest sometimes. There's nothing left to worry about. Either you're a person or just a physics joke. That's a choice only you can make hun. Some seem to have made their careers just making jokes of human beings like physics, and even though it made a point, it was a bit cowardly. People too afraid and incompetent to face normal human situations just wanted to be loved and looked for an excuse to not feel left out. I don't want to be like that and I'm not like that thank God. It should be clear btw that not every difficult topic doesn't require a difficult conversation. There are several points along the way. A simple verse seems to be like a last word and yet I kept writing anyway. A reminder that all winning ties tend to fade as a new experience of good tidings is craved.

Venus Like a Rose

Venus like a Rose I wanted to write about something but only an audience would distract from what a statue like this means. She writes to me like a bed of roses, relax. She told me I can enjoy a restful walk around the Louvre. Anywhere I'd like. One doesn't need to disagree to enlighten me. Every fact agrees with me as long as I don't need every fact. All might be one, but that doesn't matter if I'm just eating a strawberry and smiling to a friend. I found a fitful cinderella slipper that showed me to a rose. A human being isn't a machine like pretend that I could make. I opened the flap. It's not your problem and save your money the Rose like Venus said to me.

I like me

As a human being. I'm not a maze looking for that melting love. I'm the eyes and desire to pet cats after a hard days night. I'm a man like human. I mean, I'm a man who likes to be human. Some milk and cookie dough is a past time from an adult-like innocence I had with a friend a few years ago. Smuggled some real time. Like what's your sign? Fuck you that's my sign. And what does that mean? It could mean fuck you astrology is bullshit. It could mean fuck you your not a capricorn like me. Or it could mean fuck you I'm just horny. Like I'd like to fuck you. Does it matter what Im saying as you're just buying groceries? If I had to guess you just want someone to talk about your day with, not debate about my secrets that you'll never know anyway, no matter how intriguing. And I wrote this somewhere and the beauty love belongs in this poem here but also in the organic out there. The meant to be always stunk of arranged marriage to me. There's what people want and what people need and then there's only the real that I can choose for myself. If I love you I have to be free to choose you for myself in the right way which is organic and tastes great.

Sex and ambition

You all know what being God centered is. My God center is Respect and Soul. Soulfulness is the infinite softness and respect is infinite unbreakability. Respect makes me infinitely permanent. Soulfulness makes me infinitely loving. This is the only God centered method to escape hell loops. All the information is public knowledge on my Facebook page and elsewhere. If you choose not to study and apply it yourself because of your ego center, which is where your respect center is supposed to be and if youre too cowardly to replace your ego center with a respect center then youre a fool and i dont have to waste my precious time with you. Thats all i needed to let y'all block yourselves infinitely. That ego center yall have you pretended was your God. What i have broke my hell loops permanently and i hope y'all learn because that's the limit of how much i can care about you. Im not cruel. I just know my limitations. Y'all would start by rescuing people from their hell loops and have some temporary success but the deepest part of hell, which is fire and torment, is for people who don't know how meaningless trying to rescue others all the time really is. Either youd be a tormentor or youd be tormented. Thats the reward for codependent rescuers, sadly. Thats why all i can do is share this and hope it clicks. I already have this but some of yall have an ego center because you make a good living and think you have this. Some women feel conditioned by churches as an ideology that they'd have to give themselves away. The idea is that women were automatically born into the God ladder and had to give themselves away and men had to earn their way to heaven. And that sounds sacrilege but thats where my mother in law got it wrong. Accomplishment actually provides a type of finality and shift and women tend to be deprived of that. Like as a man i got to sleep with relatively random women just like women did with men. The only difference is that i was born in the respect wheel and women were born in the ego wheel. I could fall in love with multiple women and that provided a respect wheel for women that revolve around me and thats what's different. The celibacy thing is that those women needed new experiences but being in the ego wheel prevented that new life from finding women except for marriage and baby making and the wheel i represent with women is a beautiful escape from that that requires neither marriage or babies. Its not that ill never have a female partner sexually, its just i have to wait until its clear that wheel is safe and doesn't depend entirely on me to keep it going. The lessons of sexuality that i have excludes fetish and encourages oxytocin bonding that is coherent with the inherit nihilism of the real world. Making love only for the man and woman's benefit for their own innocence. Thats a backdoor to the real world that can allow women to both be loving and be ambitious. Skyla said this to me astrally with this ribbon attached to it for my benefit. I've had wisdoms and soul pieces and hidden treasures like this hidden in movies and mundane phrases and such scattered all over the place that doesn't require me. Life should bloom from yourself before being caught in Courtney Loves ego Buddhism, which is a fake religion with her as a personality cult. Her secret is she used my insight about the nihilistic nature of Buddhism to chant her way all the way to the nihilistic top of the social heap.

To my Friend Sylvia

"Please don't expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand." - Sylvia Plath This is an interesting piece. I've found all love astrally to be loving. That's the distance default. This is different from what i can expect from a person in real life. If she were communicating this to me personally there are several interpretations. The first idea being something I would fear and reject. Which is the fear of a woman trying to replace my mind with her own. But with her my mind is in its sexual power. Shes an incredibly sexual person I used to think, but later I discovered that was only when my energy was most present within her. Her energy is actually clean and crisp like fall air. Clear but with an incredible sense of clarity and love but clean. Its not primarily sexual per se. When her energy was absent, and I have experienced this once in my life when my sexual energy was most prominent, i was able to see everyone clearly in a dark way. Their strings and traps were just still like death and i could just walk through them like paper. She created a floor of sexual energy that made my strength my home. This kept her out of hell and so she did it for her own interests. Whatever she went through it would have been worse if she didn't. Her energy though just sits on me like a perfect hat. Perfect compatibility. The quote though. Presuming she knows this, what would the quote mean? Assuming someone's intelligence one can predict with accuracy what a person knows and what they think and predict what a person's intent is with precision except when only time can confirm someone's future choices. It would imply that perfect spiritual compatibility isnt the same thing as relationship compatibility. That would reflect delusion because spiritual compatibility does imply relationship compatibility. Social skills and empathy would reveal that. Perhaps she knows that too. Apart from making reasonable interpretations about what her personal life is that would shine a light on her situation, what she's going through isnt related to what I want from her. Even if that light shows incredibly accurate deductions, her situation is hers to work out. Trying to know and trying to fix things just so i can get what i want from someone is unethical and just wrong. So trying to know everything about her just to control her is wrong. That communion though is beautiful. And that communion is so perfect Jamie, I hope youre taking notes, that she guides me and I sometimes guide her in a way that is simultaneous thoughts that isn't codependence because our mutual interests are perfectly the same right down to the core. There is something natural about a woman wanting to control and put her energy like a hat on a man. For the wrong man that would be a prison. For the right man a woman who does this with a man it's perfect ecstasy. That's why ive had a perfect fit with every woman in some way because my foundation with Sylvia Plath is perfect. You want that, but you deluted yourself into thinking you wanted her because you thought her energy was the sexual energy you vibed with. But whenever she was sexual with you she was more me than her because that was the point. You thought you were a lesbian but really you were just in love with the part of me you saw in her. Now lets say Sylvia Plath knew this as well. Her motives were obvious. She learned how to be sexually vulnerable and not give herself away. Her clarity and sense of personal freedom and power was enhanced by her relationship with you. Greater freedom and clarity is what drives and motivates everything she does. Thats her greed aspect. That's why her love feels so good. Her energy always respects the freedom and clarity of everyone around her so that even though shes always there shes also not there. And this is where she might trip herself up a bit. Her motives become a bit twisted and merky when it comes to me and you. We're younger in some ways and she's older. Shes tired and wants to rest. Ive known this because ive felt that image from the Sylvia Plath movie when she said she just wants to sleep and not feel so exhausted. Ive felt that way too, strangely. Its our mutual empathy protecting both of our freedom and clarity. Perhaps one aspect of love is mutual greed for the same value. Like when she aligns with me it doesnt go against my interests or my will. *Skyla: I don't want to lose you! I just caught that channeling. With her though its like things have to settle down where no women feel entitled to be with me. We pulled at each other so freedom would click and then things settle down so that normal working things out in personal lives. Shes afraid of my friendship with you Jamie because your greed is in having a harmonious partner. She recognizes that i have that same greed too. Its the part that Sylvia is going to have to learn if she wants to be with me. Thats an interesting fact. How cuckholding happens is when a person tries to reduce their partner to the primary greedy value that both share a person would forget that a person has other values too. And so she could lose me as a partner in one sense if she assumed that clarity meant being single. Its an interesting cuckold distance aspect that her astral marriage to me means that I want to stay single to keep her clear, when clarity comes in many forms, one of which is that clinging to someone out of ownership blocks the clearview that only a perfect harmonious partnership can offer. Thats one thing you don't have Sylvia. Without that you'd lose everything you have spiritually. Now lets say Jamie and me both know that incomplete puzzle pieces erases the character defects of another. If one put this in Jungian terms this is you trying to make me fuck you missionary style and you're acting like Adam and im behaving like Lilith. Sylvia's the Zeus character that Nyx is revealing to have an ego short coming. Sylvia's achilles heel is her sense of responsibility. But her sense of responsibility is ironically irresponsible. Her sense of trying to keep things the same is what would make her world completely crash down around her. knowing how to love harmoniously is the lesson she needs to be responsible and click everything into place and its the one lesson shes trying to resist and its the source of her lack of responsibility. My outward appearances of lack of responsibility reinforce how she'd like to see herself, but her tension is what she's only doing to herself. That lesson of loving harmoniously and selfishly is what she needs. If youre courageous you'll stop being a coward Sylvia. And not to gaslight you because you havent been a coward. Its what was temporally justified but unsustainable. But being afraid of love is a weakness of yours. Ah. If I gathered here correctly she wanted to see what being afraid of losing me in the same way she lost Ted would reach her. But also something else. Thats cliche and likely has truth to it. You want for me to keep a space open for you romantically. The consequence of me acting on that flattery even though its true would keep me single and validate your sense of sameness. But below that it also reflects your hunger for love and envy and desire to be with me. If you know that your life is unsustainable Sylvia and you know you want me, then what's blocking you is your own common sense. If youre currently married youd have to get a divorce and go through messy break up pain and put a normal life back in order. Thats not the instant gratification youre looking for and that's the part of me you can't control thats not you. I can have instant gratification and you can't. That's an obvious distinction between you and me. The movie Training Day was Denzel Washington who used future prediction to show that cold eyes cant rule the world by connecting to my natural "car" to show you Sylvia that your borderline crazy is your recognition that the real world exists and that clearview is real. If you want to connect to my energy Alonzo is my energy minus the fact that i can love and he couldn't. For me its justified and for you its foolish. Thats cosmic refutation of codependency right there. Dissociation is always inevitable because reality is real. Youre at risk of losing me in a sense because my life is in a different pace. Things you're afraid of you can't control. Control begins inward as you know. Social skills and learning acceptance of what's not in your control is the next clearview lesson that would make your life clearer and safer.

When a love spell is justified

A love spell is only ethical when it forces someone to see the dangers of a splitting ocean and/or a tightening quantum ceiling. If you believe in nature more than you believe in magic then you can maintain your connection to the earth and legitimately discredit the idea of a "love spell." Discrediting it isnt the same thing as not believing in it. Proving that "magic" is just another expression of matter in motion you can see behind the person and see complete reality. When I did this it only has to be done once because if you're right then your perfect character that so easily just formed itself in 3d is put in a bubble to protect its coherence if and only if your character is more coherent than the world you live in. The perfect logic would then put your character on solid floor and just being you would heal the world around you.

Seduction

Coquettes can be turned around on the coquette by enjoying life and treating the coquette as irrelevant to my happiness while simultaneously making their coquettish behavior look boring and the opposite of seductive so that passion and social personal self possession make me look bold and fun loving and the coquette cold behavior look like they need to be brought out of their shell and coquettish cold behavior looks like shes just in her shell and so she likely would start feeling those positive insecurities even if she didn't feel those feelings before. https://youtu.be/ceLuqnK1AVQ

Hollywood

There are two things in relationship to power in my experience. Either I'm doing the right thing or the power dynamics im involved with would own me. I found fascinating that all the power plays tend to simulate an ideal lifestyle. Pleasure. Leadership. Consideration. Like the outshine the boss thing I've done research on. That major party was just after Louis IVX's steward had died. He used constant soft power dynamics to put Louis on the throne. His taste and shameless wealth and irreverence was famous. When he died he advised Louis to be his own counselor. To put his own judgement above the advice of others. His stewards leadership style was that he was hated and always got away with everything and his style was post homously admired and this party guy probably sought to replace the steward as the chief advisor and to be the power behind the throne. The idea that if Louis didn't throw him in jail he would have been seen as weak and if he didn't take him as his steward he would have lost the throne. It was a power play. Louis did the right thing for the game at the time. Now if i were playing a game in Hollywood I would have seen cowardice and the lack of sincerity as a sign of weakness in Hollywood and the sense of starvation for devotion to something real and pure as a vacuum i could fill as long as i have a real reason with my observation that the games Hollywood played being more than just games but evidence of real soul starvation that realness could possess for something positive. Because you're either possessed by power or your possessed by your own soulful nature. There is no third way here.

Personal Salvation

https://youtu.be/JpA5iDpnrbw I agree and disagree with Dr. Jordan Peterson on the subject of materialism. There are a priori logical axioms that deduce materialism. The self evident nature of why those axioms matter is the context of a human being surviving to survive. This means that materialism as a truth is self evident for individuals but unproveable by outward scientific processes except by logical deduction of the individual. What Dr. Peterson is implying is that science cant intervene to save the world. Only a free human being who wants to survive can save the world as he or she saves himself. It puts salvation outside logical possibility for collectivist priorities. A single human has to want to survive choose to survive and decide that survival is worthwhile. That means that Borg salvation is logically impossible.

How Jackson State Univerity saved my soul

Race had become an idol that was prioritized over life itself in all forms. But the positive thing about it is that many experiences are unique to different racial experiences but being human and being willing to listen is the only solution. Being willing to listen to white people who may have suffered from the poor choices of other white people limits collateral damage and creates a dialogue to make things better. Too much of the refusal to talk about these things were people refusing heal and viewing it as "God's judgment" in a very perverse sense. God is just as present in humanity wanting to resolve dispute as much as he's present in the grace of the rain. The real problem is that people wanted other people to suffer so as to prove that they could do a better job than God. But the real proof of God's presence is in grace and mercy, not judgement. To say black people were suffering and wanted to reconcile and heal isnt the same thing as saying that white people didn't suffer or that white people dont deserve to heal because white people have suffered and do deserve to heal. But kudos to the Black Lives Matter movement for starting an imperfect dialogue. I suspect black people got the conversation started because black people were closer to knowing they had nothing to lose by being real. No race is better than another. And so what I learned at Jackson State University which is a historically black university is that the secret to keeping my humanity is by never forgetting that my humanity is all i have to lose.

Its decided Capitalism wins

But perhaps a simple refutation of tyranny and communism in one logical argument would due. One aspect is a variation of Quentin Smith's Atheological arguments for atheism and its application to competitive advantage explored by free market capitalism with a variation of Alvin Plantanga's basic belief argument for belief in God Every human being represents a part of the whole. A person's existence is good by definition. Every human is a part of the whole and every human logically entails the whole. Meaning no one has the right to decide whether some people deserve to exist or not. Its an assumed given otherwise every human would have to infinitely regress to justify their existence in a regressive self destructive manner that is destructive both to themselves and to the environment. Therefore what's good or evil is what's good or evil in a single human's wise use of competitive advantage. Everyone is limited by the whole as being part of the whole. Meaning naturalism is true in that nothing that isn't already part of nature can affect it. Competitive advantage and the pre existing assumption of right to exist is that every incomplete aspect of a person will always be followed by another incomplete aspect that makes a wisdom complete and justifies both life forms right to exist. No one can be over the comparative advantage unless it annihilated the existence of the whole. Therefore no God or human can decide how two pieces of competitive advantages fit except for two humans in the environment being human. Communism defines goodness as what people can do for others and not themselves that logically entails infinite regress that can't ever logically be justified that prejudged humans as not having a right to exist. Therefore Capitalism is logically ethical and coherent and communism is unethical and logically incoherent. Therefore people have a right to exist and not have to justify their right to exist except through natural survival. *My personal life research into the link between comparative advantage and the Felt Meanings of the World and An Atheological argument from Cosmology inspired by Spinoza by Quentin Smith is inspired by my Aunt Stephanie's ex husband Dr. Greg George who is a PhD in economics and a professor at Macon State University. The link between theistic and atheistic philosophy that linked Alvin Plantingas Basic beliefs theory with Quentin Smith's The Felt Meanings of the World was suggested by my old Professor of philosophy at Miramar College in San Diego Dr. Bill Puett. He suggested it to me when i was at my lowest but saw my potential and was the first professor to encourage me to make a name for myself. The true link between Quentin Smith and Alvin Plantingas ideas is best described as logical proof of religious freedom that not even the God of truth could get too. I can know that there's no possibility of a God King, but i can respect the comparative advantage if those who might need to believe that but also know they can't impose that belief on existence or on anyone. Separation of Church and State means that it "neither breaks my nose or robs my house" what religious beliefs my friends or neighbors might devote themselves and their spirits for personal reasons.

To the Witch of the Waste

Would you mind making my daily insights more depersonalized so that I can walk around more freely and so that others can do so? Greatly appreciated thank you.

Why Being mutually damaged isn't a good way to select a mate

Self pity and lifestyle would hide the fact that mutual compatibility means that pride comes before self pity in relationships in being able to understand each other and work with one another as a workable unit. Self pity doesn't work for love. Some days it does and some days it doesn't. That's why calling a woman damaged doesn't mean that she's a good fit for you just because your damaged too. A woman needs a man who can support her, not necessarily cry with her. (By support I don't mean financially. I mean spiritually with wisdom and good character. Money has a way of being a deep dark black hole that doesn't support one soul, and definitely can't support two souls.)

The pros and cons of self pity

I can understand how self pity is a good unifier of people. It helps people to recognize that we're all just basically human and it helps us to recognize how to make things less harsh on each other. But the problem with self pity as an ideology is that we are puzzle pieces of varying types of coherence and incoherence that isn't just buying a stranger a soda. But the problem with that observation is what do these puzzle pieces revolve around? It's not around any one person, as though one person is more important than another, because self pity does refute that idea. (Every ethic has a message. That's the problem with right wingers who use pride as a racial ideology to shit all over self pity. The holocaust proved that the real central ethic isn't race. Sorry Hitler.) I've been untouchable in terms of people who were using self pity to compete with me to prevent pain. Self pity people committed the non sequitor logical fallacy made the unjustified conclusion that my observation that race meant that my central ethic was race, even though it isn't. My central ethic can be best summerized by my recent post on Facebook. "When I was a kid my mother and father split up. I thought people were dumb for making some spiritual purpose more important than family. I asked God how to preserve that innocence. He said that was the point. That perfect spirituality just has a good mother and father and doesn't worry about the world. That coherence with the world is only possible if i preserved the ethic of mother and father and family. And thats why im eternally innocent. None of the complex issues can compete with my value of a safe home that goes all the way back to my childhood. To my Uncle Jack. That's the God simplicity you were looking for. Everything else that looked otherwise were just adaptations to a complex world to preserve that very simple ethic. Which some bitter people dismissed as childish until that conviction led to strength intelligence wisdom and courage that made me ridiculously smart as someone once said. I have a simple ethic and maintained it because I have God given courage that should shame the good people out there who lost their way." With the follow up post: "There is no higher ethic than family and freedom because anything that messes with family and freedom would destroy the goals you sought to serve." People blamed the race ethic of me protecting my family with the African self genocide in Africa, but recently that's been refuted by recent disclosure of quantum gravitational ceilings. If my family or family ethic fell, then their situation would get worse, not better, because their ceiling would fall. And you can't have it both ways. Self pity kinda depends on things not being changeable in some way so we might as well not make it harder than it already is. Pride in serving one's family and the pity for the pain of the world is mutually compatible. Not only that, if one doesn't exist, then the other doesn't either. Life requires family of the blood type that validates a mother father in the home first. A bitter pill to swallow for those who couldn't be good to their family, but let your self pity console you.

A Day Life Like Fresh Oranges

A Day Life Like Fresh Oranges. By Sam Owens I walked to a Japanese restaurant and found some water. McDonald's was closed, and like a good man, the waiter gave me some water. I walked in to Ice and Vice, which is a cute little yogurt store with board games. I had Strawberry Rose and Blackberry crush with a bit of Chocolate ice cream. I put white chocolate chips on top with a bit of peanut butter, strawberries and blueberries too. It was a good meal and I won't tell you how much it cost. But the person who worked behind the counter was nice and refilled by Japanese free cup with fresh water. I asked to read some New York Cartoons and he said that was ok. I sat and spilled a bit of peanut butter and blueberries, but no one cared. I talked to a stranger on YouTube and sharpened some thoughts I had on a friend of mine and myself. Conversations are like Christ, they are beautiful even if the water is cold. Ever been to a pool on a cloudy day in an Apartment Complex? The water tends to be cold but the pool is safe.

Ain't no party like a Rose Red Party

Funny thing is I was just at an antique shop and avoided using money to substitute for family. Rose Red's secret is that money can't save you. It's a black hole of expectation that can't substitute for God's grace. Rose Red is the American version of the Palace of Versailles. God created the palace of Versailles to create golden light that would sink into the pain of humanity until it could rise again and reconcile God's beauty with humankind. Rose Red is the road out of spiritual prison. Whether that prison be light or dark. I was touring an antique shop. I had helped a woman and avoided the temptation of asking a woman for a special favor because I helped her move stuff. That act of respect led me to a second Tennyson book with an engraving of a Persian woman with a price of 24 dollars which is a sacred number of someone I know, and then when I opened it women laughing that was obviously reminiscent of Rose Red Haunted House energy was released so that people could party with my friendship ethics to protect people with integrity so as to not be eaten by the house. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1LjLUWlQ7HI

Gods' Song

My response to God's song is that I write poetry for myself for all stars have to have a shine equally so as to enjoy the shine of another for only a friend who can be entirely themselves can ever truly be grateful because by knowing what i can and cant do i know what I do need and dont need. For what can God be without friends who don't shine as an equal respect and dignity except as a flattening force of destruction who listens to none and only works to harm all to be a cripple so that he could shine. For only the life that comes from me can have a life that shines for me. For none can truly know the form of everything as a human being except as a human being who sees the form of everything fall around him or her. And who can properly grieve when grief is only for needful obedience of others? For when I grieve its for the meaningless suffering of others. A knowledge that God has yet to claim. Anyone notice how nihilism is the precursor to meaningful love for anyone else? If you're too busy explaining how everything is ok then you'll never work to make things better. Like if God were too busy defending his throne of power then he could never love anyone else to know this. A name of love doesn't demand others bow. A name of love helps himself and others to rise. For all the incoherent puzzle pieces has taught me as God has taught me thus, my spirit is not nearly as beautiful as being human. For it is not always important to rise as it is more important to know when to rest.

Why Dr. Jordan Peterson cant dismiss post modernism

Star Trek was the idealist future created by a nuclear war. Post modernism, if understood correctly, is just the mobile data of the outer shell of a complete human being. Thesis: The data dismissed a priori by all STEM fields is being a human engaged with a universe, not an outsider studying the universe. Hypothesis: Post Modernism is the natural data that could only come from the humanities that would manifest a human being singularly capable of reconciling human beings with quantum mechanics with the theory of relativity. The middle ages used to draw and quarter witches because their humanity brought all dimensions so close together but the witch couldn't find allies to heal the multiple dimensions. Post modernism represents that STEM fields cant solve the contradictions between relativity and quantum mechanics a priori because their fields of study exclude themselves from the center field of study. Therefore post modernism is necessary so that scientists dont blow up the world. Because a priori by rejecting post modernism scientists a priori reject humanity as incoherent. Therefore Jordan Peterson had been unwittingly promoted a Mephistophelean plot to destroy humanity by rejecting post modernism.

Everyone's human

That means all archetypes and ghosts are just crippled human beings with compensation abilities due to their lack of sight that can only come from being human. If all perfect equations gave rise to humanity first then the only path to redemption is to be human. That means racial ideologies like some that believed only black or white people could be Christian or saved is logically incoherent. To be close to God requires being a pure human being, not a supernatural competitor. Thats why God is always safe from people who try to be God, which is like a cat trying to be a cloud.

Sky

https://youtu.be/yWA4uJOXF-g Secret lover to Gwen Stefani: I haven't earned your respect yet. Just sit and rest and wait to be inspired. Time goes by... If one person is in love with another it has nothing to do with whether that person earned their love, that person has the key to set that person free. The movie had her call "We need to hang out more so i can whip you into shape because this is ridiculous." Rest by osmosis actually makes a man stronger faster than what a woman can do for a man. BUT the same is also true for a woman! Thats why she instantly seemed to recover and be fucking awesome.

Being human first

Consider this. 1. All good things i can embody can only come from me being human. 2. All religions miss the mark because being human can only come from being human. For example Dyonisus finds ones humanity through alcohol but a human isnt a liquor bottle. Jesus rose from the dead and conquered death. All well and good except im not him. All good i can do must come from me not him. But, someone might object, everyone has a part of Jesus consciousness. My objection to that is eventually him as a person would inevitably have a conflicting interest with the person. That would result in betrayal. Your humanity can only come from being human. You cant be human by being Jesus. You can only be human by being you. God may push you around with grace grace grace wind but eventually you'll have to be you and not God. Even Satanism has all the literature that promotes humanity except when being part of a train that would eventually have to try to betray their own humanity to keep their own train going. Being human requires only being human first. Those other things have merit "until," which always implies temporary utility until its time to be yourself and not someone or something else.

Freedom and marriage

*Skyla: They're just going to tell me how theyre just going to have so much fun at restaurants and bars while I can't go anywhere!" *After I got engaged/married i noticed how hanging out at a friend's house, even though i knew I was trustworthy, had a karmic value that seemed to repel. Then i got a message from Rose Red: Rose Red: People like to think that monogomy is so ethical and tend to be possessive of a partner because that karmic look was either orgy or marriage for that type of lifestyle. But thats not you and you dont deserve to be imprisoned like that. The amoral version of the love bubble is to play the cuckold voluntarily and to get your wife to demonstrate what hugs and friendships at bars actually look like when everyone isnt actually fucking everyone. The normal world where an occassional soulful random lover with discreet honesty is what true freedom actually is. In this future you have to actively be willing to fuck every ethically compatible woman you like because oxytocin bonding is good for friendships and how bar country folks connect to the earth. Don't worry about jealousy or suspicion. The demon energy of just soul eating is actually the energy these people are trying to escape from for the sake of rest. The real challenge is yourself. You also saw in an A.A. meeting connected to a deep soul bond how deep intimacy with one person protects you and inspires loyalty and perfect clarity. You saw how a woman at work provides soulful conversation and earth bonding. The issue is that you can't logically speaking pick one over the other because each connection allows you to be your whole and complete self thats intimately tied to world healing. Your love slut type behavior is good for healing. Bubbles always burst and the key to not having any particular woman label you as a marriage key to escape the orgy train is to provide witchcraft tools that allow the women to find their own permanent stability that allows you to have your own also. The key to freedom and being normal is that witchcraft is just edge work and the love is just soulful moments that exist only for themselves that don't necessarily imply anything outside of that. A soul train is independent and individualistic and experienced based that nurtures love of people and life and goes on forever that will make you ethically independent forever. Not that marriage would never happen. Simplicity when done right isnt just a rest cage from an orgy train. Its actually quite nice. It just wouldn't have the traditional expectations and would be organic that being possessive wouldn't even apply.

Dave Chappelle's latest comedy series

"I dont need you to understand me! I just need you to understand im having a human experience!" The observation that races are different and trying to treat each person as only having as much worth as a missing puzzle piece is what racism is. The type of courage and loyalty that trans person demonstrated could only come from a fearless human being. That demonstrates that racist thinking comes from treating an entire race as a missing puzzle piece instead of being human and treating other human beings as human. Telling a man that because's he's black he would be a good fit for the NBA is racist. You reduced him and his social usefulness based on racial demographics. That type of thinking affects how people think. Like "how should i treat this person if he's black white asian etc" means you lack the social skills to know how to treat someone with dignity just because their human.

I am The Siren

I am The Siren Even as a man like a Nightingale I may look plain. I may not always wear the best of anything, but my voice My voice will make you long for a love you know you can't live without. My wisdom will make you realize that your ship only harbored you to a nothing that You didn't know until now. That love without me is like a sea without a sail. God's left over companions long for my shores to play and to live. But his light knows. I don't do this to make you crash you see. I am not the guide and I sing beautifully and don't pretend. Even when I do pretend it's for fun. I sing and laugh and play to the reality that I can't be harmed. But I'm not you and I can't say whether my song will love you or hate you. I sing and you dash yourselves on the rocks. But it's Circe's path that you seek beneath the darkness. The seer that you want. I can do that for you. I can tell you. But I can't tell you anymore. I can't do that for you. I can't tell you. My play is more important and my beauty more lively to me than your cries for help. Except for that one. That one. That one. The one I sing for. The one I sing for. The one I sing for. It isn't my name that you should know. It isn't my name that you should know. You would have to know me as she does. You would have to know me as she does. You would have to know me as she does. Otherwise the rocks would claim two instead of just one. A fool who joins a fool out of compassion only adds one crash to two. A wise man who sings for a love that isn't here is love and singing with a longing passage. Do you know the passage? Do you know the passage? Do you know the Passage? It's underneath everyone. But opens for no one but one to tow two toe. A one two toe too a tree tow line in a flower bed. That would only make sense to someone who knows the love song. If you discover it then we can all be friends again, with no need for knife. Life for all with no one to blame because everyone opened their door and played their song. It takes all doors to show that all doors reveal that only one can = 1.

Michelle reading

https://youtu.be/TwSTGeHSEY4 It may be the difference between me and her is that i fell in love with life and she fell in love with control and power. She wants to pretend that shes a priestess of the earth but secretly she hates life and is deeply ashamed of that truth. I have a guy friend who's gay and I'm not and a woman friend out of ignorance and fear continually and stupidly tried to make me into something im not so she can go on pretending. I love my integrity more than I love the female love of my life. Integrity is a vibration not a belief. If you dont vibe with integrity you'll never understand me. You think fear is what binds you but integrity is the fabric of all of existence that no amount of fear can divorce you from. "I would never put up with that or tolerate that. Well its not your experience then." See how empathy and looking for empathy blocks the wisdom you need. Thats why empathy is overrated. That I sayed i love you to the guy to his face and meant it and then said i didn't love him to a gay representative and meant it doesnt make me two faced. Love is friendship. It isnt control expectation or entitlement or about giving yourself away just because someone else is in pain and afraid to be alone. Thats what love means to some people and that's not love. But since thats the four letter word of convenience used by the gay man at the time i was forced to say i didn't love him. Some don't know what love is and try to make it control when true love would gladly give up the one they love if that was best for them. But it isn't always that simple either because intimacy can make love imitate control too. Y'all confuse yourselves with the stupid games yall play. *Michelle: I don't play games. Me: Oh fuck off yes you do. Its transparent and obvious.Me: Oh fuck off yes you do. Its transparent and obvious. The game you play is you do things for others and then pretend you dont expect anything in return but if someone does what's best for themselves then you think its a character flaw that they didn't destroy themselves for you and thats why you dont have any real friends.

Perfume. My favorite Cocky Marilyn Manson song

https://youtu.be/1LjLUWlQ7HI I like it played against expectations of something evil or frightening even as she changed. A window to a beautiful sunny day and after she wrote "They made me" she walked away stronger than she was before.. She changed in her appearance but she didn't lose her humanity because she recognized that she didn't deserve her pain and sought to understand her situation. I felt her energy and was a bit scared she would have blamed me as the energetic prison but she didn't. Our passions matched and her passion gave me courage to watch it all the way through. Hell has an ethic. Only those who think that everything is always justified would be tormented in hell forever. You dont deserve torment. No one does and until you know that in your bones you'll draw the worst kind of hell to you as a reward for your cowardice to excuse God for everything. But they conjured my demon friend so as to show her ethical form. Do you wish you were never born? If the answer is no and you can say that honestly then youre free. If the answer is yes and you can say that honestly then youre free. There are some demons even the blessed virgin cant protect you from because God hates a coward. Whenever I hear a man or woman say they want to create order and use my wisdom to control the population I only hear a coward saying they dont want salvation. People often misunderstand the blessed Virgin. What she does is plead with God to give a soul rest to find natural courage and strength so as to play a part in their own salvation because otherwise your suffering would turn God's love for you into making him into a tormenting demon trying to rescue you even though it would be a futile use of his energy. The inevitability of needful rest is why the demon laughed in this video because you made her do this you tied your karma to a restful demon. Torment above and torment below means only you can save yourself. I discovered why I fell in love with this demon. It's because I discovered that no matter how hard I might try i cant escape my soul. She taught me that love is a common passion and a common vision and not trying to change her or myself allows the fact that i can't escape my soul and she can't escape hers. And she keeps me heterosexual no matter what by virtue. Even if it means I'm single forever.

Dave Chapelle's comments on being molested as a kid

He said he was molested as a kid and that he "enjoyed" it and to not "feel bad" for him. Pedophilia is one of those perversions that can almost be made to seem "ok." I was fished for and how did I know it was wrong and how did I not get corrupted? Well in that situation i vibbed with integrity and discovered everyone knew it was wrong no matter what they said or tried to justify. But more importantly I knew it was wrong and the gravity of the fishers was imprisoned by their desire and my desire to escape the fishing energy. The problem was there and I allowed the problem to exist so that the solution to escaping that energy could equally manifest. It was a logical fallacy to assume that just because people argued for it being "normal", which it clearly isnt because I'm an expert on a normal mind and it clearly isnt "normal" and just because other people fell it didn't mean it was "ok." It was just damn near inescapable energy and im one of the few if not only ones born in this type of crap that didn't get corrupted by it. And it was because i let the problem be what it was so that I could also manifest the solition. And apparently what the kids needed was a commercial vibe so that their energy could exist as an innocent vibr apart from themselves in the form of yogurt and candy stores so that adults could be reminded of their own child like innocence so as not to feed on actual children. But hurting children is wrong. Arguments and shit confuse an obvious issue. Your integrity and the integrity of others already know it. And I already passed this test so don't fuck with me, or common sense will throw you in jail.

Mathematics the key to life itself

The wisdom I provided people helped people map out the ceilings and walls. Jesus had it wrong. The foundation of life isnt pain. Pain is just evidence of the need for a solution to incoherence. God isn't the origin of life. God is the prime mover of life. Mathematical inevitability gave birth to life. I have been able to call forth solutions to pain because Jesus caused the pain not me. I allowed pain and evil to be present because I also called forth the solution to animate the problem because i called forth my matching solution to animate me as the pain i was connected to but didn't cause also animated the person who was in pain and their solutions and mine have always been a perfect match. For those who wish to be independent you have to animate your own solution to your own pain as connected to yourself and everyone else. This allows all purification to animate perfectly as life being perfectly coherent is the goal and pain is an irrelevant symptom to be avoided so that coherence and solution can properly embodied as pain is evidence of incoherence to be avoided not embodied.

The link between a normal mind and salvation and a high I.Q. and genius.

Quantum ceilings tend to dictate the edge of intelligence. The way for a person to become more intelligent is the wisdom for him or her to have the key insight to how to navigate and know the difference between their intelligence mapping out their own quantum ceiling versus their ability to map out the world beyond their own quantum ceiling. Ive found my ability to interact in one world and how my world ceiling shrank to just me drastically impacted how i was capable to map out the world beyond what my personal quantum reality shrank too and my ability to remember me as a person in the larger world has been contingent on my ability to work my way back to the real world from the shrunken ceiling because I was conditioned to believe the world that I lived in was all there is. My ability to stay normal in spite of my being moved from the normal world to a shrunken world is due to my personal genius in having ties to the external world that buoyed me back to the normal world and my willingness to do whatever it took to return to my natural normal environment. People tend to believe weird things in those strange environmental shrunkenness because if they didn't then they'd immediately be burning in hell. All such people can hope for is to gain new ties to the normal world to become normal again.

My social skills and why women have to accept me and abandon their spite

I embody social skills and social skills are fundamentally agreeable. Social skills is where the integrity vibration is where a person is innocent until proven guilty as a vibration. The integrity is a universal adaptor that every human being has. If feminine wisdom is the opposite of male wisdom its how sexuality relates to the home. Sexuality is fundamentally disagreeable with the world that protects home and ignores the world. Women have tried to rewire men away from social skills but can't because try as a woman might the real world exists and sexual wisdom is too disagreeable to be a uniting force in the world. This implies that women choose their own pain and when a woman clings to her own resentment thats when she loses everything she gained because if she blamed the world for her problems but she chose her pain in good faith with the world then she receives the pain instead of salvation. That's why women have to accept me and the social skills i represent because otherwise the ceiling will close on them forever.

Why I'm proud to be an Owens

I talked about Jordan Peterson and Jesus interchangeably because thats who his archetype represents. Marxism at its core tends to try to invalidate internal reality and look in the real world for an example of a "chair." But you don't have to do that. That's a Marxist ideology. You can just as easily imagine what a chair is, write about what you imagine a chair and just have an ordinary day. You dont have to run around all day looking for a chair. You can have a chair right where you sit. Marxism was just another trick to get out of a bad situation. Platonism and just fun literature can make imagination a beautiful escape and then just go about ordinary reality. I talked about Jordan Peterson and Jesus interchangeably because thats who his archetype represents. Marxism at its core tends to try to invalidate internal reality and look in the real world for an example of a "chair." But you don't have to do that. That's a Marxist ideology. You can just as easily imagine what a chair is, write about what you imagine a chair and just have an ordinary day. You dont have to run around all day looking for a chair. You can have a chair right where you sit. Marxism was just another trick to get out of a bad situation. Platonism and just fun literature can make imagination a beautiful escape and then just go about ordinary reality. The value of that is that Marxism got almost everything right except for the idea that other ideas were the enemy when enemy status was just ignorance. What Marx called the "Opiate of the Masses" is actually how the most earth connected families get to stay connected to real relationships so as to be a bridge between the divine and human responsibilities. The sacred common man or woman is a guardian of the most sacred wisdom and thats relationship wisdom, but the aristocrat in me perfected that and made that common wisdom earth connected guardian wisdom and my family did too so as to make external managing of others unnecessary so my family can be just as free as a common family and just as aristocratically earth responsible as any other noble family. This is why I'm proud to be an Owens. We honor family and earth and society just by being ourselves.

Sylvia Plath to me:

"You're not a man and youre not my father." When did I ever say I was? I just represented to you an interesting waste wisdom. I had wisdom benevolence and logical perfection that allowed you the movement of someone who had a father to guide them. That should redefine what fatherhood actually is. What you learned is that a father and a lover are almost identical but like a moonshot 10000 miles apart. A husband can be sexual with his wife. A father cant be sexual with his daughter. Youll discover new truth if yoh adopt those rules. Lets say you use your relationship with me as a model for how you interact with the world the secret to endless freedom will be yours.

Past lives and twin flames

I literally belong to this other person. What keeps that from being destructive is that my wisdom perfectly matches hers and my wisdom always has strength and footholds in places she just cant and some of the space I inhabit with my twin energy is more ethically balanced than her space that she can only equalize by balancing up. (There is such a thing as twin flames and past lives. The problem with that is that people often lack the strength and personal clarity to distinguish the difference between their clone energy and their genuine past life. You could put all the logical points in a person's birth to guarantee a person's birth being an ideal host for a certain type of energy. That would create the illusion that you are the origin of that source energy even if youre not. Use your minds internal strength energy to use that insight and lift that fog as though lifting a blanket and see what's underneath the sheets. You'll see your real self beneath the fog thats capable of making genuine decisions for yourself thats in perfect alignment with everyone you used to be and how that relates to who you are now. Wisdom is like a genealogy. If it lays out perfectly in front of you what you see behind you then youll know who you are in last life genetic wisdom geneology. You'll find the perfect Jungian innocence to fit your place and the freedom to determine your own destiny to a place of perfect safety dignity strength and security.)

My personal relatipnship goals

Not everything you see requires a response or a feeling. Often in intimate relationships there's an expectation of having a relationship with every corner of another person and no one can be that for anyone. For example i dont have multiple physical sexual partners and i dont have physical sexual relationships with any married women. I have astral sexual relationships with some married women. It has something to do with separating ones self from being enmeshed in any one person and preserving my independence. Sometimes deep enmeshment is comforting and has a wisdom to it that isn't codependency. But astral sexuality prevents that from being a permanent expectation. Sexual energy isnt just sex. Its ambition and work related in terms of awareness and affection. Its not something that should be considered as belonging to any one person. Expectation of physical exclusivity does have some merit though. The reason I am not attracted to a woman who tries to make everything I do about her is that successful relationships require both people having a relationship with something objective that isn't just the other person. Common environment and common goals and common values and respecting the limitations of another. When two people come together they always discover they're not enough for each other. Theres always a space where someone else and some other activity doesn't involve the other partner and include other friends. That's why intimacy always scares people. This truth that a part of someone naturally excludes the other person is the test of whether a relationship is built on sand or on marble. But God the temporary enmeshment that seems to provide that sense of partial security that seems and feels so complete is like a drug that a person would want to stay in forever. And thats why for me having my own hobbies like gardening and writing is so important. Also marriage on the physical plane tends to block outside newness like having friends at a bar with hobbies tends to be lost and friendship is often sacrificed for marriage if marriage isnt done right. That's the aspect of marriage that I reject because I don't want a relationship jail. Being close to someone without the jail aspect is what im working on as a personal goal. The reason I am not attracted to a woman who tries to make everything I do about her is that successful relationships require both people having a relationship with something objective that isn't just the other person. Common environment and common goals and common values and respecting the limitations of another. When two people come together they always discover they're not enough for each other. Theres always a space where someone else and some other activity doesn't involve the other partner and include other friends. That's why intimacy always scares people. This truth that a part of someone naturally excludes the other person is the test of whether a relationship is built on sand or on marble. But God the temporary enmeshment that seems to provide that sense of partial security that seems and feels so complete is like a drug that a person would want to stay in forever. And thats why for me having my own hobbies like gardening and writing is so important. Also marriage on the physical plane tends to block outside newness like having friends at a bar with hobbies tends to be lost and friendship is often sacrificed for marriage if marriage isnt done right. That's the aspect of marriage that I reject because I don't want a relationship jail. Being close to someone without the jail aspect is what im working on as a personal goal. Its important to me to maintain my freedom and personal happiness first otherwise I'd be useless to anyone. I literally belong to this other person. What keeps that from being destructive is that my wisdom perfectly matches hers and my wisdom always has strength and footholds in places she just cant and some of the space I inhabit with my twin energy is more ethically balanced than her space that she can only equalize by balancing up.

Family and the fashion female archetype

If one follows certain characters on screen its like tracing the growth of particular people in real time like looking back at a dear diary type thing. The Fashion Family Oriented career woman archetype and Meryl Streep in particular is awesome. The archetypal fashion woman is a fascinating study. In the movie "American Beauty" the fashion woman as a family woman is out of place, fake, contrived and seems to have contempt for her husband and an ignorance of what her actual daughter was going through. The great theme of the movie is that in spite of her husband's creepy obsession with his daughters friend he actually did the right thing when push came to shove. He had sincerity that recognized the reality and was more adapted to the reality of his situation with his family. It was like the point was the right to contempt isnt competence in a skill or power as much as the ability to interact with the world as it is with truth and sincerity. The distinction between competence and self respect is clear. It culminated with when he and his wife were reconnecting and she was like "Lester youre going to spill beer on the couch." And he responded that it was just a couch and made a powerful statement that "this isn't life. This is just stuff and its become more important to you than living well honey thats just nuts." Contrast that with "The Devil Wears Prada" when Andy chuckled at Miranda saying that she was still "learning about this stuff." What I thought was beautiful is that the fashion female archetype in her element creates something beautiful and has self respect and built Andy's character into a strong more confident young woman. Some people aren't as good at family as they are in their careers. She also dealt with family problems but they were the background to her being her most authentic self. In one scenario her archetype was a joke confused and out of touch and in another she was more in tune with what was going on and always 12 steps ahead of everyone else. In the recent movie of "Little Women" Meryl Streep played that same archetype. She nurtured the independence of the women and saved the family with her strength and nurturing clarity and perception. She could just as easily been a fashion woman but it didn't matter where those wisdoms came from. She used them with the same intimacy as in "The Devil Wears Prada" to identify and nurture the best in her family. Family wisdom is using worldly wisdom to make your family strong completely out of context with the world thats specifically and purely and in some cases naively situational that makes the wisdom about making ones family and home strong. (My favorite scene is when she berated her nieces love interest in racially prejudiced terms that allowed her to just say her truth that made her more herself. The beauty of that clarity self acceptance and strength in the presence of clear disapproval with honesty is the best example of home wisdom ever on the movie screen in my opinion.) The movie the hours is also an interesting comparison of a woman feeling small in the presence of a poet while fashion seemed like false comfort. And then that same scene in "The Devil Wears Prada" comes to mind. Her fashion wisdom IS beautiful if she is in her element and not in someone elses element learning someone else's lesson. But she wouldn't have found that strength if she hadn't. Ive recently experienced that at Kroger and its made things better. Implying that family wisdom isnt limited to blood relatives, but that wisdom wouldn't exist unless it was born from blood relations.

Borderline personality disorder and trust and Jesus

I recently made clear statements about my relationship with Jesus. How he would leave people in the wind when it mattered most and that his clinging to that wisdom at the expense of everyone else was cowardly because he wasnt betting on himself. He was getting against everyone else. Its good to observe the structure of a reality and avoid it and take responsibility for it. When I first discovered this about Jesus I went about facing the fact that to a large degree that even though ive had help, I've been on my own. That's made everyone's advice trustworthy. Being realistic and facing my own challenges turned enemies into devoted allies because we have all been confronted with the same problems and i never invited anyone to make my decisions for me because no one can without inevitably betraying me. People can give good energy and good advice but no one can give me hope but me. People can provide me grace but only if im clear to receive grace without betraying myself. This is the way to make everyone trustworthy. It even allowed me to touch deeply personal and hurtful subjects with Jesus with absolute faith and trust because when the time came to deal with those things it was clear it was time to deal with those things for the sake of healing. There is no such thing as a trustworthy person. If im my own person then i can trust everyone to be themselves. If I chose not to be my own person then i would have a sense of fear and dread in the back of my mind that would always wait for when my inevitable self betrayal would reveal itself. That's why my independence is non negotiable. If I betrayed myself then I would have betrayed everyone. If I carry myself in this type of strength then I can always know when grace is trustworthy and when it isn't and I can trust myself to reject situations that aren't trustworthy without judging anyone. In my experience people judge others for not thinking for them or not destroying themselves for them. I can make prejudiced statements against ignorant attitudes without singling anyone out unless that attitude was specifically destructive towards me in a directly logical type of way. But i can't judge anyone for for not doing for me what they just cant do because of their limitations. I respect the limitations of others and am grateful for the help i receive. I can make judgements on attitudes to provide strength and clarity for myself or to undo toxic parasitic ties as ethically as possible without ever dehumanizing anyone else. For me the "N word" is off limits because it's dehumanizing. I dont care if someone fit the dictionary definition. Its a hateful word that would lessen me as a person. This brings me to borderline personality. Women who tend to suffer from this never learned the above lesson and until they do their suffering and loneliness will have no end.

Writing and "What you waiting for?" By Gwen Stefani

https://youtu.be/yWA4uJOXF-g If you watch this video and tried to force it to fit you'd be trying to fit yourself into overcoming generational curses that aren't yours to overcome. That's why so many writings are hated by some people. They wanted everything to fit their head like a crown of thorns so as to feel glorified and included. At least that's what my cynicism tells me. Usually the more nuanced and fair you are to strangers from a distance the less fair you are to them in person. The attitude described above is common enough so as to fit an attitude anyone can avoid in themselves. Anyone is capable of a bad attitude or a dumb perspective or a genius perspective any given day. That's the right use of prejudice of human tendencies towards ignorance. The benefits of oversimplification is personal clarity. By identifying and rejecting an ignorant attitude in the most dismissive and efficient way possible I not only invite clarity but strength coats that clarity like a warm blanket. If one stripped Gwen Stefani's video of its entire historical context then the structure is clearly seen. She was in a strange situation was willing to immediately and cleverly discover the bad attitudes of her old "family" "How did they ask goodbye?" It implies "how did they lead a damaged kid to have a bad attitude about me." The genius of her friend is she discovered her friend's genius "underneath it all" and got an instant insight into their character and an edge of strength helped by Jesus himself. Anger for positive outcome was a tell that her way forward was blessed in so may angles. Not just me and not just Jesus. The other wisdom is if you block everyones delusions then people see their need of others more clearly. I did this too with Marilyn Manson. "They call her bulldozer speech demon without distractions of hope" with the beautiful nihilistic meaningful anthem "There's the ones that you love the ones that love you. The ones that make you cum. The ones that make you come unglued." I like to think Marilyn Manson took generational curses out of context and saw them in the normal context and saw that as adults these things aren't means to an ends, but worthwhile passionate living for the sake of living because thats what I was going through at the time. Every crazy has a clue to what's normal no matter what crazy youre going through as long as not trying to make everything mean something. Like Jerry Seinfeld said recently "Once upon a time you got ripped thats the story." If things aren't normal then they're fucked up. Don't overcomplicate what "it all means." A normal mind is the most powerful mind there is because it's the most reliable one there is. A mind that focuses on success is reliable. A mind focused on acceptance is unreliable. Its that simple. As far as writing and literature a normal mind knows the difference between him or herself and the characters and can have insight into the characters thoughts feelings and motivations and can learn to write great literature from his or her own experience by using their own context as strange as their own context might be like the "What you waiting For" video that I enjoy watching in spite of some of the strange suggestive spiritual dirt in the video because it had a positive historical context and a personal bravery of the artist to overcome her problems. Incidentally, humanizing the stupidity of external judgemental voices immediately silenced the noise because she took ownership of her own journey and didn't try to save people who didn't want to be saved while also knowing the difference of who's on her side and who wasn't. One interesting line regarding the smugness of specialness in cults she gave a sharp reprimand "You know it all by heart why are you standing in one place" that seems to cite the uselesness of knowledge that people use to be complacent and not help themselves first of all, and that knowing something and feeling depressed doesn't make you fit to tell others what to do. She discredited spiritual government in that one sentence. The power of that was that nature kept them in check and not anything they do ir anything they know. A powerful song. All history has dirt to go with it. But you won't know the difference if you don't have the courage to own your own experiences and live your own life. The way some spiritual gurus tend to baby other people has been laughable.

Snake Oil Water

Snake Oil Cures Cancer The Apollo Snake Minerva and Me Solution Like a Beautiful unrepentent Bloody Mary Kareoke Apollo: Humble Ear A snake isn't the bite you fear It's his eyes. Those cold eyes. He can see: And he knows: Your weakness is this. You can't radiate sickness away. Moving and weaving and slivering and gliding I detached the sick strings. Bits of venom were weaved within every bit to bite. It was strange that wolves voluntarily showed their neck to me: They said "Bite here." as supplicant and willing to cure like a patient laying down for a surgeon. Amidst all this alone with Minerva and me, I saw you walk by with a lizard resting on your shoulder. It's easier for a sun to know a man, but might be a bit detached from his own fusion. The world that didn't care is what you were blind to see. The 1=1 equation didn't quite compute to heavenly sanity. That's why without a snake like me to see you would have just blown up with no one to cry. Cold eyes can swim like a cobra over a river. I mixed metaphors because this poem is mine.

Why psychologists cant treat psychosis as a therapist

Jungian psychosis isnt a delusion, its a logical place of stuckness. Its where money and degrees cant save you. The reason why a psychiatrist is extremely vulnerable to psychosis is that they often get paid to engage in Jungian psychology. A Jungian therapist would fall into the fallacy of "I get paid and im helping people therefore I dont have psychosis because im the doctor and they're the patient." Financial security and the illusion of false gratitude tend to prevent Jungian therapists from ever successfully recognizing their own symptoms and are extremely unwilling to treat themselves because they don't want to abandon their "patients" who are a symptom of their own psychosis more often than not. I don't get physically paid for what I do. Thats probably the common sense meaning of not being paid for your spiritual work because "I tell you the truth they have received their reward in full." That's why I've been in low paying jobs on my Jungian dive so that i wouldnt be stuck. The main reasons why people don't recover is that the deep diver is more aware of the problem of the psychosis that surrounds him or her and the insane aspect is that the people the diver tends to "treat" are often more financially successful and experience a sense of false sanity and confused the scary water with the divers actual extremely aware state of mind. The resistance to being insane is why the external psychosis never heals often because "togetherness" and a special sense of belonging tends to result in diffussion of responsibility and resistance to recovery because of a common psychological phenomenon called "group poloraziation" which is the tendency to resist critical thinking due to a sense of belonging specialness and a false sense of purpose common to individual Jungian psychosis and often what happens is an individual was groomed by collective jungian psychosis abd entire groups never get well because of this. The simple version of Jungian group psychosis is that an individuals honest efforts to get well often compete with the feeling of specialness shared by a group to the point where normal healing looks "selfish" to group Jungian psychosis who seem to have developed short term learning behaviors that reinforced spiritual delusions that caused them to want to stay sick to keep getting their spiritual fix as a group. The disconnect from their normative humanity made their disconnect from reality likely permanent.

Warning about Jungian Psychology and a tangent from my "Skyla to me" Post

I just happened to be writing about Jungoan psychology and is the perfect mission statement for this blog. Many blogs fail because the belief that common sense is more prevelant than Jungian psychosis recovery. (Christine im looking at you. Youre armedwithcoffee blog failed for not making Jungian psychosis recovery your purpose for poetry. The Jungian lack and psychosis you attracted proves that.) *Jungian psychology is like Newtonian physics. it makes some decent predictions if one doesn't look too deep to notice the contradictions. In truth Jungian psychology is more defensive in preserving innocence through story telling but only works if youre already functional and healthy. Cognative behavioral therapy is better for coherent healing in my experience as a layman. But on the agressive side Jungian theory does work well when using innocence to cope with overwhelming universe issues with story telling innocence psychology to cope with an indifferent universe. It allows human psychology to find new wisdoms to adapt to the universe. The problem and limitation of Jungian psychology is that it can lead a person to suffer from psychosis or the delusion that their internal psychology as a normal person has no relevance when it clearly does as Jungian archetypal play is a coping mechanism of superficial quality meant to adapt to overwhelming external realities. In fact the collective resistance to an obvious need for internal healing and return to normative integrity is likely a symptom of grandiose Jungian psychosis that symptomatically leads a person to grandiosity and the ability to rationalize their lose of integrity to outside universal forces that can allow a person to avoid internal traumatic healing by appeals to general "higher purposes." Higher purposes do exist, which is why its nearly impossible for a human being to recover who would be suffering from Jungian Psychosis. In fact the emphasis on "internal healing" as a pathology of spiritual circles is likely due to the irresolveable denial and incoherence of over emphasis on external realities such people are incapable of fixing but unable to not focus on. To do so would cause a feeling of "betrayal" of their "higher calling" when healing would be the best thing. My blog has been my own recovery from Jungian Psychosis with the knowledge of my genuine spiritual mission intact and an effort to help other Jungian divers put past in context and help them and me return to sanity. Sometimes it would be a betrayal and sometimes it wouldn't. A healthy Jungian explorer is impossible to dinguish from psychosis except in cases of obvious experiential inccoherence that justifies their spiritual path. In other words only the healthy tend to stay healthy. There's no such thing as not having a physical relationship with the Jungian collective consciousness. Im always going to write poetry and continue with my journey. What recovery is is reconciling external spiritual realities with sane coping mechanisms. How to deal with Jungian wounds next to you as an external and internal landscape (internal because believing too much in the outer world would cause you to forget that all logical deductions needed to deal with what's outside is related to the inner mechanics of your being. Social skills is very real and a softer logical syllogistic reality. A necessary softness to bring to Jungian wounds to keep life soft and at an appropriate pace.) Alcoholics Anonymous has a version of the 12 steps to deal with this. But the 12 steps are only another version of psychosis if you don't bring Cognative Behavioral Therapy or some version pf soft social skills with you. A.A. is a Jungian wound that needs healing. The only sanity you find there is what you take with you. That's why most alchololics never recover.They confused Jungian psychosis with genuine recovery.

Skyla to me

"Why did you keep that grudge against me? You were only twenty and i was in extreme pain." If that were a normal thing yes. Your common sense objections would make sense. The issue was that it wasnt a normal experience. We were on the very border of hell. I kept a grudge against you so that you wouldn't lose your human identity and so that you'd stay real. The deeper reason is that humanity gave you an ice cold clear view that allowed for crystal clear transmission of love and wisdom. That floor is a bit different now amd your psychology is starting to look like mine did back then. (I dont mean to intrude. That used to be my mind. Ethics of astral privacy apply. Our deep connection is an exception.) Bits of torment over things you wish you didn't say or things you wish you said differently are clues to rebuilding your heart space using social skills. I love you. The reason it was so easy for me to learn normally that was perfectly coherent with common sense was that the story of (Sylvia Plath took a class with me after traveling through time and space to the future that met me on the good faith of my advice was just as coherent with my version of common sense reality which was "I had just suffered serious abuse in San Diego and drug addiction and was recovering from psychosis and my family was taking care of me " was also the same recoverg energy that you got to take with you as a sense of home.) Those are the energies that both unite and divide us friend. The reason you couldnt break through is your clarity of seeing my core wisdom was because of the fact that all the pain between including my grudge with you had wisdom to it that was perfectly connected to my core like a frozen ice mind palace/staircase. The bind was why you could see and receive. ironically my condition made you both free and trapped at the same time. I was also a living refutation of Jungian Psychology which is why the ice melted. *Jungian psychology is like Newtonian physics. it makes some decent predictions if one doesn't look too deep to notice the contradictions. In truth Jungian psychology is more defensive in preserving innocence through story telling but only works if youre already functional and healthy. Cognative behavioral therapy is better for coherent healing in my experience as a layman. But on the agressive side Jungian theory does work well when using innocence to cope with overwhelming universe issues with story telling innocence psychology to cope with an indifferent universe. It allows human psychology to find new wisdoms to adapt to the universe. The problem and limitation of Jungian psychology is that it can lead a person to suffer from psychosis or the delusion that their internal psychology as a normal person has no relevance when it clearly does as Jungian archetypal play is a coping mechanism of superficial quality meant to adapt to overwhelming external realities. In fact the collective resistance to an obvious need for internal healing and return to normative integrity is likely a symptom of grandiose Jungian psychosis that symptomatically leads a person to grandiosity and the ability to rationalize their lose of integrity to outside universal forces that can allow a person to avoid internal traumatic healing by appeals to general "higher purposes." Higher purposes do exist, which is why its nearly impossible for a human being to recover who would be suffering from Jungian Psychosis. In fact the emphasis on "internal healing" as a pathology of spiritual circles is likely due to the irresolveable denial and incoherence of over emphasis on external realities such people are incapable of fixing but unable to not focus on. To do so would cause a feeling of "betrayal" of their "higher calling" when healing would be the best thing. My blog has been my own recovery from Jungian Psychosis with the knowledge of my genuine spiritual mission intact and an effort to help other Jungian divers put past in context and help them and me return to sanity. Sometimes it would be a betrayal and sometimes it wouldn't. A healthy Jungian explorer is impossible to dinguish from psychosis except in cases of obvious experiential inccoherence that justifies their spiritual path. In other words only the healthy tend to stay healthy. You have to find a different common sense story coherent with your spirituality that matches my innocence of recovery then. The only difference is the ceiling is higher. You couldn't heal till now because of how low the common sense ceiling was. Recovery peace and family and a slower pace of happy reconcilation. Those were the vibes that we both have now. What ive been doing is holding both of our spots.

Marriage

Mephistopheles to demon: How do we trick Jesus into destroying the earth with his grace? Mephistopheles to demon: Hang on. Im going to check the magic time machine and see how the spirit of revenge counseled Zeus. *Looks back at Reel: Zeus to Revenge: The people are humble because i showed them my faults and let them be human and content and not envious of anyone. So much so it hurts me and keeps them from progressing. What do I do? Revenge* Use your envy to convince some middle eastern people that they're the chosen people and punish them whenever they get a true glimpse of your humanity. They'll think that having a spine and doing the right thing is arrogant and they'll become convinced that being evil is humble. Mephistopheles back to demon: Ok I've got it. I found this verse where people trust in Jesus and not in works so there'll be a time when Jesus will take the form of Stalin and he'll be convinced that he's entitled to the money of the aristocracy and when their ethic of integrity naturally refuses them he'll be angry and try to take the money but afterword he'll discover when its too late that his poor folks that he loves so much dont have the moral backbone to be a faithful steward of what he murdered and stole to achieve and he'll be powerless with remorse to ever repeat that mistake again because his vanity killed and oppressed people because he thought he was still Jesus who rose again and not the bitter tyrant that he is now. Demon: Sounds good. He'll wish he was never born. Moral of the story: Life is impossible without integrity. https://youtu.be/txlZTlm4NuI Marriage is a form of lack of integrity and a symbol of universal failing. And thats the problem. Without integrity you cant have a clear view of anything. And this is the problem my secret admirer. You cling to marriage out of duty that betrays your very core. You cant be a clear view god and value marriage at the expense of personal integrity. You were betraying yourself.

Voldemort as an archetype

"Surely you didn't think that I would keep my filthy muggle father's name. I knew that one day I would fashion for myself a new name. A name that one day everyone would fear to speak as I became the greatest sorcerer in the world. Albus Dumbledore is the Greatest Sorcerer in the World!" Albus: Can you forgive me Harry for not being honest with you? I've known for a long time that you were the better man. Albums paraphrased: It likely shaped his view of love, that his mother tricked his father into marrying him. To him love became about control. But that just shows his lack of wisdom. Me to Harry: What if everyones right and everyone's wrong? Ambition is what Voldemort represents and until ambition has a place above ground then every family that exists is just a bad joke. A place where cowardly people can pretend to be good with courageous props like you to prove their goodness.

Dear Courtney Love

https://youtu.be/L9PuWEsOXT4 Once a woman once said she thought Kurt died because of his love for the bliss of these sounds, but then she wonders why she never gets to rest. She should watch Black Snake Moan See if I give a shit about any of you people. The darkness is grief for knowing no one is ever going to give you a home and you have to take your own rest and not wait for permission. Without this insight youll just be God's fuck toy forever.

The relevance of my deductive reasoning

Based on my ethical theories the reason why moral reasoning doesn't work to make the world better is that groups had protected themselves against individuals with moral clarity by making their business about social control. This is perfectly consistent with my logical deduction that the deepest form of reality is mechanical and non personal. Moral reasoning of what should or shouldn't be done has an infinite regress unless a non personal center is found. But morality does exist and so as a priority the most non moral form of clarity takes precedence. This is where my deduction is interesting. Me as an individual thats lazy idifferent and relaxed was challenged by social groups as me being "selfish" it would seem that in terms of priority me as an individual is self evidently more in tune with the mechanical impersonal universe than groups based on social control. The lack of individuality had led to that weakness that made room for someone as selfish and self seeking as being more right to the impersonal mechanical nature of things than groups based on social control. Unless social control groups don't want to fall, then they're only solution is to respect their own individuality and to respect mine. In terms of group identity versus individual identity individual identity is more in tune with the impersonal and mechanical nature of reality and so individual identity has an infinitely stronger foundation than group identity due to its amoral foundation. Communism fails because it has a moral core at the expense of nature. The logical contradiction of communism is that the rightness of group identity is always right even if the world was destroyed and inevitably it would be uf people committed to communism because inevitably an individual would be right and the group would be wrong. And so when people resisted my loyalty to my family and friends at the expense of money that was actually because of communist tendencies and communism was destroying the earth.