Michelle reading

https://youtu.be/TwSTGeHSEY4 It may be the difference between me and her is that i fell in love with life and she fell in love with control and power. She wants to pretend that shes a priestess of the earth but secretly she hates life and is deeply ashamed of that truth. I have a guy friend who's gay and I'm not and a woman friend out of ignorance and fear continually and stupidly tried to make me into something im not so she can go on pretending. I love my integrity more than I love the female love of my life. Integrity is a vibration not a belief. If you dont vibe with integrity you'll never understand me. You think fear is what binds you but integrity is the fabric of all of existence that no amount of fear can divorce you from. "I would never put up with that or tolerate that. Well its not your experience then." See how empathy and looking for empathy blocks the wisdom you need. Thats why empathy is overrated. That I sayed i love you to the guy to his face and meant it and then said i didn't love him to a gay representative and meant it doesnt make me two faced. Love is friendship. It isnt control expectation or entitlement or about giving yourself away just because someone else is in pain and afraid to be alone. Thats what love means to some people and that's not love. But since thats the four letter word of convenience used by the gay man at the time i was forced to say i didn't love him. Some don't know what love is and try to make it control when true love would gladly give up the one they love if that was best for them. But it isn't always that simple either because intimacy can make love imitate control too. Y'all confuse yourselves with the stupid games yall play. *Michelle: I don't play games. Me: Oh fuck off yes you do. Its transparent and obvious.Me: Oh fuck off yes you do. Its transparent and obvious. The game you play is you do things for others and then pretend you dont expect anything in return but if someone does what's best for themselves then you think its a character flaw that they didn't destroy themselves for you and thats why you dont have any real friends.