To my Friend Sylvia

"Please don't expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand." - Sylvia Plath This is an interesting piece. I've found all love astrally to be loving. That's the distance default. This is different from what i can expect from a person in real life. If she were communicating this to me personally there are several interpretations. The first idea being something I would fear and reject. Which is the fear of a woman trying to replace my mind with her own. But with her my mind is in its sexual power. Shes an incredibly sexual person I used to think, but later I discovered that was only when my energy was most present within her. Her energy is actually clean and crisp like fall air. Clear but with an incredible sense of clarity and love but clean. Its not primarily sexual per se. When her energy was absent, and I have experienced this once in my life when my sexual energy was most prominent, i was able to see everyone clearly in a dark way. Their strings and traps were just still like death and i could just walk through them like paper. She created a floor of sexual energy that made my strength my home. This kept her out of hell and so she did it for her own interests. Whatever she went through it would have been worse if she didn't. Her energy though just sits on me like a perfect hat. Perfect compatibility. The quote though. Presuming she knows this, what would the quote mean? Assuming someone's intelligence one can predict with accuracy what a person knows and what they think and predict what a person's intent is with precision except when only time can confirm someone's future choices. It would imply that perfect spiritual compatibility isnt the same thing as relationship compatibility. That would reflect delusion because spiritual compatibility does imply relationship compatibility. Social skills and empathy would reveal that. Perhaps she knows that too. Apart from making reasonable interpretations about what her personal life is that would shine a light on her situation, what she's going through isnt related to what I want from her. Even if that light shows incredibly accurate deductions, her situation is hers to work out. Trying to know and trying to fix things just so i can get what i want from someone is unethical and just wrong. So trying to know everything about her just to control her is wrong. That communion though is beautiful. And that communion is so perfect Jamie, I hope youre taking notes, that she guides me and I sometimes guide her in a way that is simultaneous thoughts that isn't codependence because our mutual interests are perfectly the same right down to the core. There is something natural about a woman wanting to control and put her energy like a hat on a man. For the wrong man that would be a prison. For the right man a woman who does this with a man it's perfect ecstasy. That's why ive had a perfect fit with every woman in some way because my foundation with Sylvia Plath is perfect. You want that, but you deluted yourself into thinking you wanted her because you thought her energy was the sexual energy you vibed with. But whenever she was sexual with you she was more me than her because that was the point. You thought you were a lesbian but really you were just in love with the part of me you saw in her. Now lets say Sylvia Plath knew this as well. Her motives were obvious. She learned how to be sexually vulnerable and not give herself away. Her clarity and sense of personal freedom and power was enhanced by her relationship with you. Greater freedom and clarity is what drives and motivates everything she does. Thats her greed aspect. That's why her love feels so good. Her energy always respects the freedom and clarity of everyone around her so that even though shes always there shes also not there. And this is where she might trip herself up a bit. Her motives become a bit twisted and merky when it comes to me and you. We're younger in some ways and she's older. Shes tired and wants to rest. Ive known this because ive felt that image from the Sylvia Plath movie when she said she just wants to sleep and not feel so exhausted. Ive felt that way too, strangely. Its our mutual empathy protecting both of our freedom and clarity. Perhaps one aspect of love is mutual greed for the same value. Like when she aligns with me it doesnt go against my interests or my will. *Skyla: I don't want to lose you! I just caught that channeling. With her though its like things have to settle down where no women feel entitled to be with me. We pulled at each other so freedom would click and then things settle down so that normal working things out in personal lives. Shes afraid of my friendship with you Jamie because your greed is in having a harmonious partner. She recognizes that i have that same greed too. Its the part that Sylvia is going to have to learn if she wants to be with me. Thats an interesting fact. How cuckholding happens is when a person tries to reduce their partner to the primary greedy value that both share a person would forget that a person has other values too. And so she could lose me as a partner in one sense if she assumed that clarity meant being single. Its an interesting cuckold distance aspect that her astral marriage to me means that I want to stay single to keep her clear, when clarity comes in many forms, one of which is that clinging to someone out of ownership blocks the clearview that only a perfect harmonious partnership can offer. Thats one thing you don't have Sylvia. Without that you'd lose everything you have spiritually. Now lets say Jamie and me both know that incomplete puzzle pieces erases the character defects of another. If one put this in Jungian terms this is you trying to make me fuck you missionary style and you're acting like Adam and im behaving like Lilith. Sylvia's the Zeus character that Nyx is revealing to have an ego short coming. Sylvia's achilles heel is her sense of responsibility. But her sense of responsibility is ironically irresponsible. Her sense of trying to keep things the same is what would make her world completely crash down around her. knowing how to love harmoniously is the lesson she needs to be responsible and click everything into place and its the one lesson shes trying to resist and its the source of her lack of responsibility. My outward appearances of lack of responsibility reinforce how she'd like to see herself, but her tension is what she's only doing to herself. That lesson of loving harmoniously and selfishly is what she needs. If youre courageous you'll stop being a coward Sylvia. And not to gaslight you because you havent been a coward. Its what was temporally justified but unsustainable. But being afraid of love is a weakness of yours. Ah. If I gathered here correctly she wanted to see what being afraid of losing me in the same way she lost Ted would reach her. But also something else. Thats cliche and likely has truth to it. You want for me to keep a space open for you romantically. The consequence of me acting on that flattery even though its true would keep me single and validate your sense of sameness. But below that it also reflects your hunger for love and envy and desire to be with me. If you know that your life is unsustainable Sylvia and you know you want me, then what's blocking you is your own common sense. If youre currently married youd have to get a divorce and go through messy break up pain and put a normal life back in order. Thats not the instant gratification youre looking for and that's the part of me you can't control thats not you. I can have instant gratification and you can't. That's an obvious distinction between you and me. The movie Training Day was Denzel Washington who used future prediction to show that cold eyes cant rule the world by connecting to my natural "car" to show you Sylvia that your borderline crazy is your recognition that the real world exists and that clearview is real. If you want to connect to my energy Alonzo is my energy minus the fact that i can love and he couldn't. For me its justified and for you its foolish. Thats cosmic refutation of codependency right there. Dissociation is always inevitable because reality is real. Youre at risk of losing me in a sense because my life is in a different pace. Things you're afraid of you can't control. Control begins inward as you know. Social skills and learning acceptance of what's not in your control is the next clearview lesson that would make your life clearer and safer.