Skyla to me

"Why did you keep that grudge against me? You were only twenty and i was in extreme pain." If that were a normal thing yes. Your common sense objections would make sense. The issue was that it wasnt a normal experience. We were on the very border of hell. I kept a grudge against you so that you wouldn't lose your human identity and so that you'd stay real. The deeper reason is that humanity gave you an ice cold clear view that allowed for crystal clear transmission of love and wisdom. That floor is a bit different now amd your psychology is starting to look like mine did back then. (I dont mean to intrude. That used to be my mind. Ethics of astral privacy apply. Our deep connection is an exception.) Bits of torment over things you wish you didn't say or things you wish you said differently are clues to rebuilding your heart space using social skills. I love you. The reason it was so easy for me to learn normally that was perfectly coherent with common sense was that the story of (Sylvia Plath took a class with me after traveling through time and space to the future that met me on the good faith of my advice was just as coherent with my version of common sense reality which was "I had just suffered serious abuse in San Diego and drug addiction and was recovering from psychosis and my family was taking care of me " was also the same recoverg energy that you got to take with you as a sense of home.) Those are the energies that both unite and divide us friend. The reason you couldnt break through is your clarity of seeing my core wisdom was because of the fact that all the pain between including my grudge with you had wisdom to it that was perfectly connected to my core like a frozen ice mind palace/staircase. The bind was why you could see and receive. ironically my condition made you both free and trapped at the same time. I was also a living refutation of Jungian Psychology which is why the ice melted. *Jungian psychology is like Newtonian physics. it makes some decent predictions if one doesn't look too deep to notice the contradictions. In truth Jungian psychology is more defensive in preserving innocence through story telling but only works if youre already functional and healthy. Cognative behavioral therapy is better for coherent healing in my experience as a layman. But on the agressive side Jungian theory does work well when using innocence to cope with overwhelming universe issues with story telling innocence psychology to cope with an indifferent universe. It allows human psychology to find new wisdoms to adapt to the universe. The problem and limitation of Jungian psychology is that it can lead a person to suffer from psychosis or the delusion that their internal psychology as a normal person has no relevance when it clearly does as Jungian archetypal play is a coping mechanism of superficial quality meant to adapt to overwhelming external realities. In fact the collective resistance to an obvious need for internal healing and return to normative integrity is likely a symptom of grandiose Jungian psychosis that symptomatically leads a person to grandiosity and the ability to rationalize their lose of integrity to outside universal forces that can allow a person to avoid internal traumatic healing by appeals to general "higher purposes." Higher purposes do exist, which is why its nearly impossible for a human being to recover who would be suffering from Jungian Psychosis. In fact the emphasis on "internal healing" as a pathology of spiritual circles is likely due to the irresolveable denial and incoherence of over emphasis on external realities such people are incapable of fixing but unable to not focus on. To do so would cause a feeling of "betrayal" of their "higher calling" when healing would be the best thing. My blog has been my own recovery from Jungian Psychosis with the knowledge of my genuine spiritual mission intact and an effort to help other Jungian divers put past in context and help them and me return to sanity. Sometimes it would be a betrayal and sometimes it wouldn't. A healthy Jungian explorer is impossible to dinguish from psychosis except in cases of obvious experiential inccoherence that justifies their spiritual path. In other words only the healthy tend to stay healthy. You have to find a different common sense story coherent with your spirituality that matches my innocence of recovery then. The only difference is the ceiling is higher. You couldn't heal till now because of how low the common sense ceiling was. Recovery peace and family and a slower pace of happy reconcilation. Those were the vibes that we both have now. What ive been doing is holding both of our spots.