God's Plan

Ive done some study and my insight tells me that the story of Paradise Lost happened exactly as Milton described. In the space of disaster and darkness God's breath of life was in a unique situation to create life instantly. I used that insight after the 2017 Facebook disaster fall to get all of everyone to help me and God to breath life back into creation again. This time to break the cycle of suffering and creation by having human beings be part of the restorative creative process. Social skills is the natural flotation device that allows for permanent recreation to perfect harmony. To have everyone working equal with God to create removes all of life potentially from the destruction recreation process.

Why doing nothing and relaxing attracts perfection

Here's an experiment. Assume im right and also assume that intelligence isnt attracted to hard work. Intelligence is attracted to a relaxed vacuum that can provide infinite calculations that define the space you live in as a 3d human being and infinite energy that justifies the calculations perfectly. Thats why relaxing and doing nothing as a human being attracts perfection thats both nurturing and loving. The core inside you thats the perfect quantum point of perfect you knows how to organize all the information to reduce your energy to the simplest and most weightless and natural human being organism as possible, the real intelligence thats the real you thats decisive and can make decisions that produces the energetic and informational output that perfectly matches the energetic and informational input that creates a perfectly organized human being thats easily and perfectly you.

Courtesy is just allowing me to be.

Intended fairness isn't courtesy. letting true voices be what they are and me being me is. Thats ultimately what protects me from Hell. My humanity doesn't hold anyone underwater. Your own deeper logic stubbornness or fear does that. I'm not the only healing voice out here.

The beauty of literature

I've been reading some nice old notes in an old English literature college book with notes from a professor. Literature is the best friend a person can have. I feel passion for life in such a lovely way that seems to celebrate just ordinary life. A life without worry or care except for the natural challenges of life with a professor encouraging me to rely and think for myself That sense of openness is something i feel I almost thought i lost. ive had a lot of buried gems that carried me that imitated a sense of love for life that created the emotions that mimic openness and love of life. But i never knew I had actually lost that part of my heart until someone just gave that back to me. I love literature. And no matter what anyone tells you people love people who think for themselves and endure life with love strength and dignity. Literature is grown up innocence one can feel from a page and wrap safely around ones life abd body like an invincibility blanket of love. I feel life opening up for me in positive new ways. A wonderful path of realistic fantasy of insight is what gives life to romance and just life in general. Literature protects me from delusional cynicism and makes me alive with hope rest But the comraderie of good life and literature is still with me. May it also be with you.

Blind corrupted faith

Jamie you have a weakness to only believe things that make you feel in control and use blind faith as an excuse to make you feel humble and I used this as a method to manipulate you. Knowing this will make you more free.

Venus: Love

Venus: Love The abuse that was and is and is not: God's dream could not be clear without the absence of pain: I looked at old and the beauty of life as came from you! Women helped women and were good to their children. I saw how you rested while men struggled and endured their pain. And yet you ate grapes and laid down and enjoyed the green leaves and orange trees. That is the natural space of me. The gift you gave me is me to me. I can eat oranges as I did not envy your comfort or sleep. I braved border like you. Others must do the same if they seek to love and rest like me. Like me. Like you. Like me. Tis heavenly courtesy only a Goddess like you could teach a man like me. Dreams of rest and heaven as a man born from a woman like a man as a woman as a man. If that seems confusing, then focus on restful Venus. She'll teach you if you like to be taught. Just as she taught me. In all rest there is beauty. Venus is my goddess and a friend and a sense lover rest like a non pully and sleep. Sleep is how to live like Venus. A more beautiful dream could not be asked for.  For this I know and this be true Cane and Abel didn't fight for favor they fought to be you. 

Space and Morality

Space and Morality are the same thing. Space is too often taken for granted as having no relatioship to Morality, when morality makes no sense except as justified by the space in which it lives I'm at the library and reading "The Rights of Man" by Thomas Paine. I felt inspired to write in defence of the virtue of being a United States Citizen and an American. I pleasantly asked for a pass to the computer and internet as a guest. I saw a friend who helped me when my car broke down that I was happy to see, as it's pleasant to Experience pleasure of meeting women who I'm not related to that I have affection for, as is my natural state as a male. I don't insist on that nature as requiring to act or insist, but to merely enjoy the natural state of me as a man who enjoys the friendship of a beautiful woman. I took my pass and sat down at a computer. It said it needed an update. So I switched to the computer next to it on the right. It's a corner computer and has a vague but certain sense of comfort being in a corner. The chair though was too high and rigid and not soft and approperiate in it's height as per my own sense of preferrable posture, which tends to be lazy and relaxed. That sense of laziness and relaxation and nihilistic and indifferent acceptance of things is why I've survived this long. That space and condition is the only relevant condition that is directly relavant to me. So I defended my right to be lazy relaxed and indifferent to everything as I ethically can be. That's a stance that is what I've been able to defend. Everything else I've learned are just the necessary skills to defend my right to be lazy indifferent and relaxed as much as possible. Since the world was so againt the grain of that, it made it easy to see things clearly and to act with the utmost ethical integrity that's ever been possible. I defend a space and that's all. That's all anyone can do. Every space has it's own logical output, and so that pace allowes me to understand this intimate piece of relaxed and indifferent lovely space more than anyone else. The nature of this space can't be replicated without respecting my life and the space I defend, and wisdom I've gained only makes sense in the same nature in which the wisdom was mined and the manner in which it was mined. That's why I get to relax and not care and just enjoy life forever. Wisdom is what came out of that space that justified my right to exist as relaxed indifferent and lazy. The wisdom is founded on a moral fault, not a moral virtue that's more like the indifferent logical space that exists as superiorally below all moral urging. The state of neutrality is the lowest form of high that keeps God reminded that he is himself human. If he is a man, then the rights of men will be respected as morally right just because they exist, and women would be necessarily respected as a consequence. There is no state that can replace this. There is no moral state that can give rise to itself except as an infinite regress until math itself has the final word. My right to exist as lazy and indifferent who only exists to preserve the land that gave me life is the only true form that any ethic can create. But this confusion had been lost in many attempts at religious justification with God as a ruler as the solution, but the reality of so many religious wars and confusions could only reflect God's inability to do so, otherwise he already would be ruler of everything. How can people make God into something he himself can't be unless all presumed a superiority to a God obviously more perfect than themselves as per their insistance that God rule them? Such a logical contradiction can only be discovered by presuming a lack of morality and a presence of logic that refutes the need for a God King to begin with. Such is the natural state of endless suffering and endless wars and endless confusion of well meaning people who can't seem to access the fact that their space implies an indifferent laziness an relaxation for morality to exist at all. Morality is the math that justifies the space that life exists in to present the room for perfect form for life to exist that can only reflect the indifferent nature that truly characterizes all mathematics. 1+1=2 requires no feeling to be true. Even so-called refutations of math itself require math to be seen to be shown to be false. The stolen concept fallacy shows that one can't assume anything except that 1=1. There are other parts not being represented, but 1 is always equal to 1. 1=1. The mathematical refutation of all religious tyranny. That's why I'm proud to be a United States Citizen and an American. The United States was born from bad things like slavery and war. The United States was created as a solution to problems that exist. If one rejected the United States and only took it's profit would be to reject the United States and it's profit. To condemn The United States for its past would be to condemn the world to suffering with no solution, because if suffering is too poisonous to be a root, then suffering would have no solution. The organic nature of the space I suggest is why morality matters and why that morality is only self evident to those who are free. That's why I have compassion for the oppressed but yield nothing to them except as mathematical equations make clear.

Atheological Arguments from Mathematics and Evil: A rough draft

Causality is a nature of the universe and consequently all physical laws explain causation. 

It would follow then that even presuming the existence of God at best he can only be one instance and expression of causation as each state of causation would have to represent a source of natural laws of expression as an independent source. 

The existence of mathematics implies a non life form who's only existence is to be coherent, not to survive. 

The impersonal expression of natural laws would ultimately be an expression of its source that mirrors the theistic first cause argument which was borrowed from Lucretius On The Nature of Things for the big bang that out of nothing nothing comes can be reformulated that what is an impersonal mechanical birth must have come from an impersonal mechanical source.

For theism to be coherent everything would have to be personal in its expression and source and the material world would have to be an illusion. 

Mathematics deductively proved that expressions of mathematics in and of themselves are not personal. 

It would follow that God as defined cant logically exist as a personal source of all existence. 

He may or may not be the source of all life as a contingent necessity by natural mechanical inevitability, but he himself cant be the impersonal source of his own impersonal mechanics, otherwise math doesnt exist.

But math does exist.

Therefore God as conceived as the source of everything cant logically exist unless he is only the contingent source of all life that is responsible to life, but not an owner of life and cant own life, otherwise he would be everything and nothing would exist. 

This is a logical argument from math that i just wrote upon reading your paper.

I enjoyed Quentin Smith's works very much but thought his work lacked a neutral simplicity when he engaged with the sciences.

His logical argument from evil though lacks coherence though. 

If everything has a moral component then so does nihilism. 

What he does prove is that in order for God to be coherent then the universe would already be perfect as it is, but moral outrage implies that it isnt. This implies that at its core the universe isnt moral, but coherent and morality is an expression of God's purpose if he exists as a contingent steward of life his purpose as a steward of life. His persona would have had to have come from an impersonal source that reflects a strive for perfect coherence of life. 

Neutrality is more ethical than a universe at war with itself and so I strive to be neutral and indifferent and to only insist on my right to exist as a free human being. 

That would be the ultimate goal of God as a steward of life would be a state of neutrality between himself and all life forms. 

The only time it doesnt look like that is when the universe is becoming more coherent. 

*This argument was inspired by Quentin Smith's argument that God cant cause anything, but i argue the opposite, that God cant logically necessitate anything because thats the nature of impersonal existence but as a steward of natural order God can cause coherence by action logically made clear by logic. 

It occurred to me that even if God exists then he would only be the first of many logically coherent necessities.

That would mean that no one can be God in a sense of ruling the universe because then God would have to be superior to himself which is logically impossible. 

Priestess or witch?

 Narcissism is exactly the opposite of this. Codependency doesnt heal suffering. Sorry. Tightened spaces actually cause suffering.

In effect the earth manifested covid 19 to force people to separate heal and respect each other more. 

Pathological codependency is what causes suffering. And because narcissism tends to never want to admit fault its solution to suffering narcissism causes tends to be more of the same.

Our capacity to separate is the solution to the suffering that codependent narcissism caused and refused to repent from due to arrogance.

That the earth did this and not narcissism is exactly the change narcissism wants to avoid and would rather assume shame than responsibility.

Because that would mean that a narcissist betrayed the earth and is an enemy of the earth and not a priestess like he or she would like to be. 

But the earth tends to betray herself for her own reasons. 

A narcissist if properly understood is a man or woman who hated the earth God and existence for stealing his or her humanity and wanted revenge for being born without being asked.

Being a non violent Doc Holiday is how to escape that. You feel how you feel for an ethical reason friend. 

When I said you needed to understand your darkness my point was you didn't understand its ethical place in your life and I had the key. 

You thought order was the name of darkness but it isn't. Thats the counterfeit to God's actual place. Darkness is ethical humanity and rest. The one achilles heel God had that i had to offer. 

This blog is evidence that i was right. 

God said to me "The world needs order!"

I responded "The world already has an order thats only made worse when order was imposed on perfection. Being human is part of that perfection as everything is."

That's the eternal conversation between me and God.

The Honorable Trickster

 When does honor actually defeat trickery. 

To a very deep extent trickery assumes that the physical world both does and doesn't exist. 

Its a death paradox. The only way trickery ever actually works is if a person is already buried so deep in paradox that the only way out of death is to accept death. 

In this sense honor and trickery can be the same thing, as long as the environment is clear to all concerned the character of the trickster matters very little. 

The honorable trickster is the unification of being human and being divine because the only way for a trickster to escape death is to make the landscape clear so as to make his character irrelevant. 

Honor is the escape hatch for a trickster. Leverage that forces the trickster to be honorable.

The honorable trickster is a man or a woman who can see all sides to what's real thats normatively blocked to otherwise honorable people who can only see in a straight line.

Being cool calm and collective

 The cool collective self is a wisdom worth embodying. 

That's how to gel openness as an environmental thing with being cool calm and collective.

It's a wisdom of respect and discretion thats a real wisdom and not just deception. Any wisdom can be deceptive because deception isnt about truth and lies its the disconnect between what is real and what's expected. 

In that sense its impossible to avoid being deceptive even if you're 100% honest. 

Ive resented sometimes having to spoonfeed common sense intuitive wisdom to people who say they'ee adults, but that only presumes this cool calm and collected wisdom is in its right top place. 

That's changed my perspective on spoonfeeding. It means that wisdom is about breathing life and healing with things that should be obvious, not informing people on what they should or shouldnt know. 

That means this cool calm and collected wisdom based on discretion and respect is also a wisdom that needs life by a collected agreement to embody that.

I can live that myself but others need too as well for it to be real. 

And so thats what im going to do without fear of being dragged down, because all the previous wisdom allows me to have an achilles heel wisdom and still be permanently human without fear of repeating the past. 

This isn't a wisdom that i can just breath into life myself like everything else. That requires the willingness of others to do that as well. 

Thats how one can transition from godhood/prime mover status into being more human again.

Im the macho Rooster Familiar: "Cry Macho" and use of witch familiar strategy to cross astral boundaries to connect with ethical earth that I myself never physically visited

I love this video though. Such beautiful wisdom. 

I like how every beautiful gem is just an incomplete beautiful picture so as not to be blinded by the reality of the whole.

As an example there are multiple gems to be found that is the same plain but different gems to find. 

Like i was meant to embody light when i worked at Las Terrazas that helped me to embody light that brought my natural humanistic wisdom of being able to get on anyones level. And that gem was what Lauren got from that plain. Her light and expansive meditative abilities is what i got from her. 

People who are together are meant to gain from the other person something they lack to both move on.

That's why no one can break free and refuse to learn. Its a physics thing. 

Sex is making affection

 I once read an article that distinguished that sex and procreation aren't the same thing. 

In my own research into borderline personality disorder and using the quantum mechanics research of a friend of mine I also discovered that love isnt something that can be made. Its a direct connection between a man and a woman who arent related that cuts right through all the fog and shares wisdom and affection with each other with perfect clarity and without inhibition that allows for fearless love. Women had either consciously or unconsciously been aware of that and need that so desperately such that its the only solution to their problem of confusion. Absolute deductive logical certainty of love. 

I used to dismiss this because it seemed so infantile of an expectation of others and the world. But it's so persistent and can't be normatively cured that it must represent something physically realistic. The territory that attitude inhabits is deeply spiritual so that must be the root of it. 

Thats why love cant be made. Its a pre-existing condition that can only be cured by being found not made. 

And so the question of sex is what is sex if its not making love. I feel sex is less painful if it's not made into something its not. If its just about making affection then trying to make someone into that love connection won't add pain by trying to make someone into something you need. Affection can provide rest, even if its not THE rest you need and if it's not about procreation. 

Thats why lesbian sex has been so popular. Not many men fit that bill and that understanding of sex for a long time only was able to exist between women because the only way for that to exist between a man and women in general is if a man has that borderline problem solved for himself and if its known by women to have had that problem solved and for women to know which woman was the solution so as to have no delusions about what they need from that man.

No man before me has actually fit that description. 

A man can temporarily embody that out of pity if women in general know he can't fit that description and needed help getting home. 

But once that man is clearly on his way home the only way back to sexual freedom is to solve his borderline problem. 

And i have and as far as i can tell no other man has. 

That put me in a strange sexual position where some of the pipeline had been clogged by needy women who want and need affection so badly but aren't fit for me because of their own borderline work they need to do for themselves.

So if I'm lucky I might have a sexual partner soon. But not someone random or unfit or unethical. 

And it might not be my perfect psychic connection of love and wisdom. That would be ideal but life isnt always convenient like that. 

Thats the temporary rest of sex as affection and not love. Love is a pre-existing condition thats found not made. But affection is made not found. 

That's really where generational curses come from which was tight spaces that had to be escaped and not lived in. Affection is made in ways that aren't sex. Thats the ethical expression of family. But in overly tight spaces that rest wasnt justified, which is why God pushed sex against families in tight spaces. 

That's why a lot of people hate God. No offence God but thats true. They felt like you starved them from love and affection and gave them a strange fakeness as a substitute. If you want to make amends for that then turn the corner like you've always been able to do. 

Why you haven't been able to do that is just your psychic coping mechanisms of your own loneliness and bitterness at love that people as human seem to have so easily. Thats very human of you God. To be bitter at what others have that you don't and to want to destroy good things out of envy. Very human. But not the best of being human. 

You couldn't experience love and so overly identified with responsibility and dismissed love as an illusion. But its not. Its very real and your grief is evidence that you already know that. 

Please love humanity by knowing that you yourself are human God. 

Simon the Magician

I was also wondering about Simon the Magician. His interaction with Peter. 

I always seem to notice that his actions represented a critique of miracles. 

That being moral was something other than being pure. Jesus once said "It isnt what goes into a man that makes him unclean. Its what comes out of a man."

It would be a mistake to assume that Jesus viewed Rome as his enemy or that he hated Rome as an enemy. Jesus instructed his followers to love their enemies. To love isnt to have affection for ones enemy in order to trick or play an enemy. That would be a form of hatred. What Jesus implied is something deeper and much harder.

Jesus suggested embodying ones enemy and seeing the beauty in your enemies wisdom and virtue while keeping your own beauty and wisdom. That means that you enrich and profit your enemies and yourself in a way that also enriches and profits your friends. 

Lucretius for example was a first century philosopher who severely criticized organized religion. That people should play a part in their own salvation. That nature is knowable and loving. Christianity embodies that Roman ethic. That hurting innocent people to preserve order was wrong. What Christians did was good Roman conscience to account and held Rome to the fire of their own ethic that saved the soul of Rome. 

Simon the Magician mocked the miracles but also held a deep reverence for the divine when Peter had empathy for his bitterness he repented. 

Its a beautiful story. Better than Cain and Abel. 

Bitterness has something to teach people who are willing to listen. 

It was almost like Simon was also a prophet of Rome who spoke for the individual soul of Rome who tested Peter on God and Jesus' behalf. 

The question was "are you just con men there to compete with Rome for political power or do you love your enemies like Jesus taught?" 

A powerful question.

And perhaps when Peter said "may your money perish with you because you thought you could buy the gift of God with money." 

That wit was a gift of God to Rome and Simon accused Peter of doing what he accused Simon of doing. 

That you are who you are and to trust the path of salvation you have.

Intimacy and awareness personal power and respect

 Awareness and intimacy with ones environment is better than any money anyone can give me. 

Thats how i immunize myself from the perceptions of others. Others can only rate me on whats convenient for them and that includes beauty. But knowing my own environment better than anyone else allows me to respect the convenience of others. 

I get to keep my personal power and respect others by knowing myself and my own environment better than anyone else. 

Flower Roots: My Specialty

Flower Root

I like the art of a root. 

It can be a shirt. It can be a flower. 

The art of which is a point to draw and grow.

That's what roots do. 

If I mixed a metaphor like 1 and 2, and if that bothered you, then

That's a limitation of a root like you.

It's not a good nor bad, it's just your roots.

Understand it and you might grow a dress or a fruit. 

For me I like a shirt and a flower and tend to get my food from the store. 

I can see all sides of a thing. With a little seeing eyes I can see past the walls without astral help.

Because all roots are the same it's only the soil that's different.

If you didn't know that then that's just a consequence of a soil that decided to grow a root such as yourself. 

I can see how a root can decide what it wants to grow. That's a consequence of knowing I'm a human being and not a root. 

That's what a metaphor is. 

And for the record, delays are a consequence of nature and you're willingness to engage with nature more than you engage with me. I may be the person you see the most, and that's a good thing if love sanctifies everything you learn with love. 

But you're out there with nature. Not me. Remembering that will make life easy and lovely.

You're wisdom as I see it is a lovely mix of respect and love and willigness to help your friends.

You're wisdom is the ability to love nature and to engage with flowers and trees and your own sense of wonder. 

You're challenge is something I've embraced and that's been how I've had to depend on people and be free from people at the same time. 

You're evolutionary niche is a good wedge to keep your ethical core from being eaten by others.

You're challenge is to not be codependent on any love interest no matter how strong they appear to you. Loving and adoring the person you love and adore will keep your freedom to yourself and the love will sanctify everything you learn so that the best of them can be the best of you too.

Just like I did with you. I used that demonic hunger responsibly so as to preserve both of us. 

Culture, Personal Identity, Common Sense and the ethics of being Aristocratic in the dirty clean manner like Marc Antony

 All I can say is that everyone hungers for something and tends to be blinded by wanting to be good. 

By that definition, even God is a demon. 

Grace is therefore only another word for wise use of human hunger. 

If used wisely, grace keeps a person human no matter how hungry they are. 

Grace always devolves into foolishness, so wisdom is in a wise landing. 

Hunger always ends up only being about the eating and not the logistics of a thing. 

That's why God logic made God into God and not a demon. 

That's why I recommend studying Quentin Smith's Essays on Epistemology to not be trapped by demonic Grace. 

Grace becomes demonic only when the eating for a clearview became a substitute for human contact, which is the final word on all hunger, as reconcilliation with my own humanity is the highest good I can ever achieve, or anyone can achieve really. 

Knowing how to be independent though is important so that I don't crash my grace into someone else's stomach. 

That's why food always comes before people. Always. 

I'm not a cannibal. I eat food. Not people. 

That allows the normal work of reality to fill it's proper place. Everything already has a proper place for everyone, as everyone is already part of the perfect logic of the whole. 

The name of the game is clearing the gunk out of the way so that's self evident and I'm reconciled with my humanity. 

The reason why I said Philanthropy is tyrannical is that it confused demonic hunger with the desire to do good. Nothing is good nothing is evil. Everything is logical. 

Perhaps the best form of hunger is romantic love.

I discovered that the reason women tend to be borderline and dissolutioned is that intuitively women know that love is a quantum feeding tube of love between a man and a woman, and if found and navigated properly then that tube is endless and limitless love. 

I had discovered that the limitation of black men is their strength. (Every culture as an adaptive wisdom, and that's a core wisdom that kept that aspect of the human race alive. Multiple experiences creates new centers of a person's humanity so that no one is trapped by the origin of their culture. And so obviously this doesn't apply to "all black men" but only to the origin of core black male wisdom.) 

Black men have been key evolvers of the human race. The push and drive of black men have kept the human race alive and not damned. 

But that's reached it's limit. It's why women have found that being connected to my source of love to be preferable to black male strength. 

It's a niche. I discovered if a black man's strength was a block that kept energy out, then that would prevent a black man from discovering his own inner mechanics as a point of survival so that what exists "out there" is more important than what goes on in the imagination. Being exposed to that really has kept me sane and humble. I learned how ambition is a form of moving forward in the real world and sheds false responsibility of parasitic hunger that would have worked against my spiritual and overall health. Ironically, it's how I lived completely submerged in the black community in such a way that allowed me to see the inside of me as a white man more clearly. 

That's evolution. I found a niche that wasn't black but in a healthy relationship that reflects black wisdom that enhanced my relationship to being white. Respecting my evolutionary niche and not trying to be something I'm not is the only way to be better as a human being. It also forced black men to realize their limit in that it's impossible to own the universe, but my success gives them a blueprint that they can find in themselves. (To those who might object to my use of the word "they" I'm shining a light on wisdom so that people can relate to people as people and not their race. But that wisdom comes in realism, not denial. I don't address people this way, I'm relating to a wisdom and how a demographic of people, black males, tend to have a common sociological trait due to common demographics. Racism is sociology trying to be social. And I know the difference.) 

That brings me to the origin of the "N" word. The pejorative that was traditionally used by white males to insult black males. That was white men who fell in love with the strength of black men and forgot that black strength is a grace and that if you're white you can't be black. That frustration is what led to that. Strength is a grace that can embody any niche in terms of evolutionary biology. I escaped that because I found my own niche that preserved me and white and black people by simply preserving myself. If I didn't do that I would have crashed into a brick wall that would have defined cultural racism. 

A persons limitation is where one stops and another begins. Love is the inner workings that also bridges the outer world. That thin line is how wisdom transfers from one ocean to another. It's how one love automatically connected me with my true love so that we could feed each other infinite love without fear. (What causes love to be a frightening sort of food is that without this constructed feeding tube between two people it tends to act as a gravitational force that allows one person to eat the other.) 

The inner workings of seeing the outline of everything is the gift that allowed me to see the inlines of me and how the insides of me connects with the outsides of everything. 

One wisdom connects with another. All human beings have a relationship to the point of origin called the big bang. Every culture, no matter how human they are because of their diversity, should never forget where their own cultural origin story came from, because that's a quantum limitation. 

Cultures should be exposed to one another, and cultures appropriating other cultures in a conscious manner is the only way to escape the gravitational force point of origin and be more human. 

The point being is that if one understands that race is real and does matter, then one can escape the race mud. The instinct that people are human and not isolated separate races is true, but it's a light that has to be learned first and last in some way that doesn't blind one's self to one's cultural origin but doesn't distract ones self that if the origin were good enough, we would still be there. 

The only escape from culture is change a We To an Eye. 

Mine personally is beyond race. My point of origin is backwards in time even before God the Devil and Adam and Eve. That's why I have always been my own person in a world defined by race. 

But my race still matters as my connection to white people is equally real. No matter how other cultures use and appropriate my wisdom to their best interests my relationship to white people only grows more innocent and more obvious. 

That truth goes completely against the grain of what people have been used too. People trust familiar habit more than logic. Friendships had also been formed on the basic of habit. Love and affection too. 

But facts are still facts. 

Most racial gravitational forces tend to pull away from society and towards their own culture. My own identity pulls me into myself and forced me to engage with all cultures for the purpose of personal survival. My gravitational force is inside myself. I don't belong to another point of origin other than myself. 

Most wouldn't be able to empathize with this except a select few. 

That's the underlying truth of Aristocracy. That responsibility is where Common Sense Falls Short. 

There's no vowel in that acronym. That's the part where common sense needs to loosen up and be a lemon wedge in his own water.  

My relationship to Sylvia Plath isn't just defined by love offerings. We learn from each other and her infinite energy comes from me sanctified by love and proven by my experience and earned for herself by her faith and trust and courage. 

That quantum funnel is why that's safe for me and her. 

But you can't be me and her. Jamie if you had one sin that set you up for heartbreak it's that you did what white men did. You fell in love with us and tried to be us. 

But you're at the crossroads that you can learn from us and respect us and not be racist. 

You can use the wisdom we provided for you to make your life better and respect us as different people. 

Grace and rest

 As i told my mom and a libra friend social skills will demonstrate easy reconciliation when the time is right. 

But all those circumstances and amends and mountains to climb thats on you. 

A tough truth i dont like saying except there is definitely a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. 

My uncle Greg simplified ethics for me. 

I am the only ethical thing im directly in control of. If im good to myself and prevent harm to myself then everything good will eventually fall into place.

Where that gets hard is you have to let go of all codependent interference with others. Its easy to say you're not your husband society or whatever, but until you can say I'm not my daughter or im not my son you'll never be as good as you need to be to be good for your daughter or son. 

For a mother that would almost be impossible which is why men have taken the lead in history because its easier for men to lack that sense of false identity. 

(A man's weakness with women is when a woman is in touch with that nihilistic side that needs love. A man's wisdom in connecting with other people in non codependent ways shows the worth of a man. Because everything is connected already in as good as it presently can be. Things are only made better by ethical separation so that true connection is transparent and clear. If you resist that call to ethically separate then you will make things worse.)

But here's where light is less powerful than darkness. God's wisdom is the grace of a toilet bowl. Rest is your responsibility. What a demon is is rest without grace. What God is is grace without rest unless the part of you thats an inevitable demon negotiates with God for grace and rest. For me I demonstrated with God that friendship and romantic love and family love naturally balance each other so that i can always rest.

Animal ethics

 There's a thin veil here that seems to assume a virtue for an ignorant and superstitious population as being less harmful than logic. I gotta give them credit, they are consistent in their lack of respect for logic. 

Just because the rights of man was done at the time of the reign of terror its a logical fallacy to assume that one caused the other. The same was done in America. The enlightenment values arguably did take hold in positive ways. 

That the reign of terror happened at that time it doesn't follow that that would happen now.

Post modernism is a reductio ad absurdum of reliance solely on myth. 

Social skills reduces the need for myth so that people treat each other well just because they're human. There's a psychological phenomenon where people treat others well because simply theyre right in front of them. 

If one did take post modern critique seriously one could say that unless people prioritize their own sensual experience of the world over history and all other concerns and value personal empiricism first like animal ethics then it would be impossible for anyone to treat anyone well ever. 

Without that no one would care about anyone any philanthropy would just be nihilism in denial only to make some people feel good about themselves without actually making a difference. 

Rest

 Don't meditate on who you are to someone else. Because that will only ever be what you're expected to be and not who you are. 

You are only as good as your ability to rest on your own terms.

The first step to that is to find life breath that isn't me. If it's not coming from yourself youre going to end up used up dried up and alone. 

And speaking of that, I have a secret admirer who's well established and married. 

Her real problem even as she may or may not understand her attraction to me, is that she doesn't know how to be single. 

She always defined her worth by whatever man or woman she happened to be with and doesn't know how to be on her own romance wise. 

Thats the lesson she's resisting and she has a tendency to try to play the love triangle game with her in the middle but she's the one who craves the dignity and freedom that only being single can provide.

Thats why you couldnt decide on shit honey. 

Home rest and relationships

 Truth is a lot of people think there's a difference between spirituality and rest. 

But the lessons of rest and home is what makes rest and home permanent. 

The level of fetish that some have for spirituality seem to suggest that those are lessons y'all need to learn. 

Cleverness is just shaping ones relationship with ones environment with the assumption that you are part of the environment youre shaping. 

Isnt friendship and true love funny?

 The stuff thats considered meaningless and trivial is where true friendship and true love could be found, but the humanitarian causes just didnt have that? 

What was considered meaningful was meaningless and what was considered meaningless is where the most profound meaning could be found.

Like in extreme pain as a kid I used adrenaline from fighting to learn the lessons of friendship. 

There I learned the difference between the value of the instinct that brought me quality friendships and my ability to be good to my friends. 

(Having sadistic instincts wasn't going to allow me to be good to my friends so I crashed like the Phoenix to not hurt my friends. But i wouldn't have learned the difference between the ability to learn and what friendship looked like. Play made friendship valuable. My pain would have made that impossible.) 

In the midst of failure i have had a love connection to Sylvia Plath that allowed me to transmit lessons that only came from meaningless experiences. 

Love and normal meaningless life is where true romance is and the only place for ultimate meaning. 

Its the land where all the beautiful church lessons are coming from. The land of nihilism and nothing.

That's humbling. 

Life is mostly meaningless

 To fight to make it meaningful is to fight for a delusion. 

Either its meaningful in itself or no amount of energy would make it so. 

I stay above ground because it reflects my contempt for those who are ungrateful for the good life they have just for a flash in the pan. 

So yeah. Thats me. 

"There's more to life than food friends and fornication."

No. There really isnt. 

At the end of the day your style of rest is the only thing you have worth fighting for. 

And as far as the noise you faced Miss Christina I'm not suggesting you wanted what the people were offering. I suspect if you wanted sex or marriage you have no problem in that department. 

What you might lack is the innocent play that comes from being in love. Random whimsical play with a partner you love. 

Thats the best type of love. 

Sex is sometimes a part of that and sometimes not. 

But it's not something that can be imposed on someone or contrive. 

What this potential craving might imply is that this type of love option is available and you need that. 

The 11th step prayer: As below so above St Francis is the antidote to be human and free and selfish and loving as his selflessness lets heavenly light and grace in ones world so as to live free

 Lord, make me an instrument of thy peace!

That where there is hatred, I may bring love.

That where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness.

That where there is discord, I may bring harmony.

That where there is error, I may bring truth.

That where there is doubt, I may bring faith.

That where there is despair, I may bring hope.

That where there are shadows, I may bring light.

That where there is sadness, I may bring joy.

Lord, grant that I may seek rather to comfort than to be comforted.

To understand, than to be understood.

To love, than to be loved.

For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.

It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.

It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life.

Gwen Stefani did that for me.

I was in that deep dark hole and i called her complicated out of hatred and envy and grief.

But she responded with love and loyalty that set me free and saved my soul to be independent and capable of love. 

Friendship hell and salvation

 To be saved from torment of hell you have to honor your own logical coherence as a life form before anything else. All logic is selfish and self centered for a reason. 

Those who don't honor this perfection would find fusion to do what you can't. Hence the fire. 

Lucifer took my form as a personality on the show Lucifer and made it his own while i purified myself on earth that kept my coherence intact and mirrored the thought form and purpose of hell while protecting me from torment..

But first God possessed me with his perfect logic in the form of Quentin Smith so that hell logic wouldn't and couldn't actually drag me to hell. 

I proved that hell is a wisdom and not a place. 

And so eternal torment is unnecessary. 

But ask for that wisdom in your own time and in a manner most comfortable and restful. 

That way you'll last and enjoy life as its meant to be enjoyed. 

Love you all. 

But you have to ask God and hell for help. 

Demons feed on cowards who don't honor their own coherence and look for cowardly forms to put in torment and to be a more worthy vessel for your human form.

But if you honor the form willingly, you would protect yourself from torment and your true friends will reveal themselves as part of your salvation. 

Consciousness and a Solution to the problem of evil

That consciousness can only truly be defined as the biological intent of a single organism who's intent is to survive and flourish. 

That without the single intent of an organisms' will to survive discussion of the term "consciousness" would be meaningless and arbitrary. 

I was studying the Palace of Versailles. 

Many palaces were modeled on that house. The occupants had common character traits and that was a predilection to hedonism and a sense of beauty and a value link between pleasure and friendship. 

Whats fascinating is the organic nature of life and logic seems to filter through to communicate precise verbal messaging in my experience. The perfect nature is best found in Mary Antoinettes garden. She didnt plan anything but the plants were a perfect fit. 

Some would suggest God designed it but I disagree. 

Life and logic is so perfectly in tune with nature. Mathematical formulas suggest a perfection that already exists in the universe that implies that it never needed any fine tuning. 

I suggest that the universe gave rise to life as a mathematical inevitability to avoid contradicting itself and that the meta logic of life implies a meta consciousness in the universe that doesn't actually exist, because it's only the conglomerate of all the selfish consciousness states of selfish organisms that produced a perfect logical structure to support life. 

Versailles to me proves that logic and beauty is selfish in nature. That an individual's consciousness would have to be. And that this intelligence is by nature perfect in relationship to itself as reflected in the perfection of the universe as a whole. 

What I feel to be seductively inevitable is that the implied selfishness of everything accounts for the meta consciousness that is life that is fine tuned to itself because the universe is by nature perfectly logical. 

This gives the illusion of God while God as defined is logically impossible. 

Math and logic would have to explain itself because if math was contingent then it wouldn't be deductive. But it is deductive. Math has no personality and isnt life. 

I hypothesize that the meta consciousness is a reflection of proper use of perfect selfish intelligence with each intelligence connected but distinctly different to the intelligence of others. Its makeup is always the same and so the differences demonstrate different environments exist deductively and conclusively. 

That as people are allowed to be more and more naturally human the better the world will match its preexisting perfection of humanity. 

People actually would make it worse by trying to manage human consciousness, except as when one environmental human consciousness thats incomplete interacts with its corresponding incomplete perfection. 

Human consciousness is perfection manifesting a perfection through social skills to perfect a perfection that already exists. 

That's a solution to the problem of evil and the mind body problem

 

The concept of God as an authority couldn't solve that because God as a king contradicts the emergent reality of collective selfish logic that is more perfect than any one person could manage it.

Best life from Gwen Stefani's song "watcha waiting for."

 You know it all by heart why are you standing in one place?

Think about it. 

Pain has no obligation to it.

 https://youtu.be/MJxbiHBpSc4

First im not allowed energetically to be physically violent, because my wisdom makes that unnecessary for me. 

Thats a wisdom that a woman would have to learn to be near me. 

Once thats understood all that other ego expectations go out the door because harmonious learning would create natural harmony. 

That habit of a woman not needing to adapt to a man's needs in a relationship is based on the assumption of a woman needing to be physically protected and is why a woman tends to be parasitic and expectant and poor at relationships and friendships due to this expectation that I will never fulfill. 

I think it was the feminist manifesto that observed the parasitic power struggle between men and women as the very basis of natural antagonism between men and women. 

Women like the idea that men should protect women physically because it allows women to suck men dry and give nothing in return because the spirit is incompatible with those types of physical needs. 

And rather than help men, some women prefer to validate their resentment and exploit and abandon men.

To say that men and women are the same means that we all have blind sides and need to watch our own backs. 

The wisdom of the cat is the perfect antidote to this. The cat is perfect in his or her expectation of safety and fearless affectionate abilities because a cat's wisdom of free will means only life that respects life can be close to a cat. 

There's no need to separate genders as any gender can embody cat wisdom. 

The implication being that to not embody a cat is a deliberate choice to not respect life and to be anti-life. 

What Teal Swann is suggesting is that by being anti life women can make men more anti life and exploit them. 

But that would end existence. 

The cat wisdom shows that men and women are the same. Its only resentment and entitlement that would pretend otherwise. 

Like i told a woman about another woman who had hurt me. 

She said "Consider how women have been treated in history now that we have a voice some women take it to extremes."

That demonstrates the stupidity of confusing sympathetic history with having any responsibility to someone else's pain whether as a group or as an individual. 

Consciousness is just the animal function of the brain

The fallacy of some who investigate the.mind problem is looking for a way to feel special and seem to consciously or unconsciously avoid even trying to answer the problem so as to protect a fake sense of wonder.

 Consciousness is just the animal instinct to protect and nourish the body and life. Everything one does is to nourish ones life in a selfish way. 

Logic is selfish in origin. That means that God as big G is an illusion created by several smaller selfish logics that create a meta logic thats an expression of life that has logic and the illusion of a mind with no mind. I call the meta mind an illusion because every single human can engage with that meta mind in a way that benefits him or herself in self interested ways and still respect life as the meta logic has a perfect entropy that structures life as healthy as it can possibly be.

Super happy poetry

A woman stand like her hair. 

No swing against the sway. 

Just a blow in the wind.

Her face looks out at the sunrise. 

Her eyes more precisely. 

Whether over a freeway or with some ice cream.

But she smiles. She remembers that she has no children. 

The deep secret Michelangelo hid like a sun with a center plant. 

A courageous Madonna needs no child in front to be like a sunset. Beautiful and able to view and stand still with the moonlight on the road.

Gravel sounded as im happy to hear from friends. 

A van that i remember and never needed to borrow. 

Antony and Cleopatra: A past life recovery

 In my life as Cleopatra I discovered I fell for my own con. As a woman I found that every man was susceptible to the chaos of love and that nothing mattered. 

Rome had one distinct advantage. Rome had smart women who raised smart men. 

If one watched the Rome series the portrayal of Octavian being raised by his mother was accurate. 

Duty was just as nihilistically good to woman's true role as protector of the family than my ambition. 

In terms of nation, the present is always more pertinent than the past. The present is just as mythologically significant as anything that happened in the past. When Antony and I identified as gods of the past we represented ourselves as a past order that no longer was relevant. 

Augustus and Caesar were living gods of the present. Being present is being good and responsible to one's people and family of the present, and not being lost in the ghosts and illusions of the past. 

Practical Rome was more spiritual than spiritual Egypt precisely for it's pragmatism. 

Sometimes women have vibed on my spirit trying to be what I was when at best my past life was only a partial success and proof of what women don't necessarily want to hear, and that's without masculinity I am only at best a suicidal success when I'm only a woman. 

That means the attempt at seduction and ambition without men or masculinity is a past life lesson already learned. 

Many women were trying to be what I proved to the universe was impossible. 

That ruling the universe is impossible because trying to be a ruler of chaos is so fucking stupid. Chaos can't be ruled. It can only be tamed as a traveler. It's why I died. So my energy could travel. 

It's why I appeared as entirely myself 2000 years later as a man, because I couldn't be who I was as a woman. I would have been trapped the same way, and so couldn't be born a woman. 

But since my cycle of wisdom as a woman was full and complete and hadn't been capable of being shared in it's completeness until now meant I couldn't give the wisdom of womanhood up even as a man. Womanhood chaotic wisdom had to be shared as a man. 

Woman have been identifying as me so as to reject the idea of being a ruler even as society demanded that they be a ruler. They could gain wisdom by pretending and be more free as a consequence. 

Thus proving that trying to be something you're not is a path to being more of what you already are. 

I love wisdoms like that. 

But for men I suggest if you don't want to be vulnerable to being drawn to women who represent chaotic love that represents ecstacy and release before you're ready, then be at one with the chaotic element of nature already around you with the knowledge that chaos is inescapable. 

A normal mind is perfectly equipped for taming chaos as a normal human. It's how human's evolved. 

That implies that a magician is often nothing more than a crippled human who doesn't know the difference between themselves and nature. 

Chaos and romance

 I can only tame the chaos that's directly linked to my humanity. 

I can't tame the chaos that's directly linked to anyone else's humanity. 

That's the limitation of romance. 

I'm obligated to share more with Sylvia Plath than I am with anyone else with a pure unfiltered love, EXCEPT when that space confronts the micro space that only she can tame herself. 

That chaos that is her is hers alone, even with the intense intimacy that we share. 

The benefit of that clear unfiltered love allows us to be entirely ourselves. 

That's why we can love and not be codependent. 

Usually that intense love was tempered with ego so that people didn't lose their identity.

But ours just flows between us like water so that I can barely tell it's there while feeling full and rich and fulfilled with life. 

The freedom of that flow allows us to be the right type of small so that we can still choose if and when we would want to be together. 

And since you're with someone else, it gives you objectivity to know how to ethically unlatch from you're ego attachments to other people. 

Our connection is ethically superior to ego. It's why no amount of duty can separate our love from each other. 

But our love can provide the clear view to treat the toxic loving connections around you ethically. But you have to be strong and independent to do so. 

The ethic of nihilism in personal survival

While watching this I had the insight that perhaps someone taught me is that every human being even The Most High God has an obedience instinct. The instinct is more obvious or less obvious depending how holistic a person's humanity is. To not be enslaved by that instinct while maintaining that instinct is the trick. The way to do that is to find a higher ethic than the conventional obedient nature of most people. That requires using ones humanity to tame a part of chaos because ultimately that obedience instinct isnt just a biological one, its a part of nature that simply serves what's best for life as a whole. The best type of leader tames nature so well that the people who depend on him or her have a milder form of that same nature to tame that gives their humanity room to brief and wonderful friendships. Sylvia Plath had that transcendent quality. It doesn't have to end in death though. People who find a great chaos in their life aren't any greater than any other human being. The consequences of failure was just so great that greatness was the only choice. Human beings all have a greatness to them. I just stuck my roots in the past so that I could stand straight like a normal human. One could argue that my present life now is what created all my past lives. The reason why i detest slavery and why others probably do too is that to be a willing slave is to be a willing failure of humanity as a whole. The lack of humanity tends to be manifested as a perversion of the obedience instinct that looks like degradation. Thats why I don't like bdsm porn is that it celebrated a potential human failure. Ladies should deprogram those instincts because they have a pleasure element to it like all learned behavior but its a docile abusive end to that type of learned behavior where the "fun" would become real slavery that would stop being fun damn fast. When it comes to sex the best form of reprogramming is to turn to the right form of obedience which is oxytocin bonding that creates a sense of love and trust that creates love and intimacy. Why lust is important more than should be roles. The reason is because shoulds are what fueled the bdsm dissociative fantasies in the first place. That's why i suspect women object to gender roles. The end result of guilt and role play is the enslavement of women as a whole. Closeness creates perfect harmony that takes work because it requires being harmonized with a persons back and front and that requires to make room for being challenged in healthy ways but only when its necessary for the health of the relationship. But back to lust and pleasure without roles. It means that what you are is capable of being who you are in perfect harmony with ones spouse and society so that slavery is obsolete. So that learned behavior can be distinguished from abuse. (Bdsm is abuse. Its just abuse in waiting like training to trick a dog into enjoying being betrayed and left out.)

Love and intimacy requires not being who you're supposed to be.

I'd like to be what I'm supposed to be but I can only be who I am.

A great insight into the fact that I can only be human, and if I fall short while being fully human I can know it's not my fault if others fail to support me, because that's a failure of their humanity, not mine.

And that's the tragic limitation. I can be everything I can be and discover that other's aren't what they're supposed to be.

The fact that I can't make people be supportive by lowering myself to what others can be and that even if I am everything I can be it won't mean that others are too.

That's the true logical refutation of slavery. I have nothing to lose and everything to gain by being as fully human as I possibly can be.

Friends companions lovers and acquaintances: I have a preference for Trees and Flowers like a Pixie

Love Logic

 I walked to a bit part in a fall flower. 

I left my milk at home just for a moment. 

I'll get back to that when I get back home before work. 

A subway sandwhich isn't always the cheapest.

The chip for the day isn't always what goes with a six inch. 

I walked by a moment with the trees for a moment.

Though I am a man, when I'm called a tree pixie I seem to giggle with happy memories. 

When I'm called a goddess it still seems to ring true. 

And yet if you saw me I'd be the ugliest woman you've ever seen, except for some strange inner beauty. 

The only thing that makes me womanly is that I refused to be a man when I was told to transition to maleness when I was born. 

That made Lilith a tutor. But she's not my mother. It also made Lilith a student of mine. 

Because her activation meant that I knew something she didn't know. Na na na na na na. 

Happy Joker Style. HJS has no vowels inside, but perhaps that's where true friends are supposed to fit in. 

H                                                  J                                                      S. 

I discovered that what true jealousy between lovers is when one dismisses the values of another. 

That's where that contempt comes from. It's not petty necessarily, as long as one doesn't treat that awareness as petty.

For example, a woman lying to another woman and calling her her "boss" does arouse a bit of contempt for me, because I use cleverness to provide my own rest, not dependency. 

I'm not addicted to the false rest of comfortable slavery. I guess that's the passion that tells me I'm better than you in that moment. 

It's not just ego. It's a deep soul repulsion at a perceived stupidity. Passion that communicates a deeper awareness.

Those who are light addicted tend not to know the difference between passion and ego.

Because to them, they're all ego blobs of God-slaves who think their humble but actually just stupid and self absorbed. 

The hatred is love awareness that knows that these people can do better and have had a hard time. 

Learn how to read between the lines and stop bothering me for every little thing. 

Right now I have trees and flowers and little happy walks between the H and the J and the S. 

Not a real human friend among them.

I have lovers who seem more like distant acquaintances and friends who are more like distant friendly business partners.

But not a true companion among them. 

Paradise Lost

 God created a false version of himself by Pretending it was a character flaw of Lucifer to be loyal to friendship over God. 

Everyone was in nuclear trouble. God put a flame past Lucifer so that it wouldn't harm him and gave him a chance to be free by being the center of the flame that would cool one day. 

Friendship was validated between God and Lucifer by God's act of mercy that looked like Judgement. 

God and Lucifer were allies so as to prevent the mindless fire behind them both from destroying everything. 

Friendship united God and Lucifer and the pretension of structure united Heaven and divided Heaven from Hell. 

Structure is its own thing. Its a mindless unity of love created by life that has no God at the center but is created by the United will to live by all life. Its the counterbalance to the mindless chaotic evil. 

These energies are infinite and indestructible. 

Heaven was a different type of dirty water that worshipped authority. 

What Sylvia Plath and I did with God's blessing was to unite love with friendship that broke the Achilles heel that idolized authority so as others could pretend to be a God that doesn't actually exist. 

It was a trick to clean heaven hell and earth of idolatry that worshipped authority at the expense of humanity. 

That makes more sense than saying that God was against idolatry because he wanted to be the super duper idol. 

The need for friendship and being an individual

 Friendship and comraderie is a human need. You can't be less than human and have friends. 

Much of what the Church of Satan said about it being a coven for non joiners isnt something unique to an institution. 

The Satanic Bible was thought to be a stumbling block to one ex cultist recovering from trauma until she sat in my literal car and saw that it was just bare bones skinny wisdom that allows me to be myself in the world. If Lucifer were a cop that kept the streets clean from dirty occultists that threatened real clean work done by real common sense occultists, then all the Satanic Bible is is a passport and a form of fun Jungian innocence so as not to lose ones spiritual connection. (That's Jesus wisdom btw. For those who are against Jesus but for The Church of Satan its like demanding the government not mess with your medicaid. Same irony.) 

The real spiritual wisdom of what The Church of Satan is supposed to represent but that no institution can represent is that unless an individual human is willing to walk alone then Jesus cant be anyones savior and that would make the world worse. 

But intimacy is just in the world of experience real friendships and trust get built on experience without losing your true self. 

I have one female friend who'd been in love with me my whole life that i wasnt fully consciously aware of. 

Mainly because her godhood is friendship and mine is individual humanism fundamentally. 

But just because your in love with someone you just crave human intimacy. 

I may represent that but it doesnt make me that. 

But as far as Jesus goes obedience is sometimes a form of rejection of salvation. But more to the point there's no person God or man that can take a persons humanity away and claim any kind of moral high ground. 

That's why God argued for his own nonexistence to save humanity. (Quentin Smith)

But friendship is something that doesnt require sexual intimacy. Sometimes sex would ruin friendship. Social skills on an individual basis and the willingness to walk alone is the only way to not make friendship a leverage. Because if you did then youd lose your humanity and have no friends anyway. 

Pretentiousness is a guide to whats right or wrong, not loyalty. Because people are sometimes loyal and sometimes not. Only being human is the constant always. 

Common decency

Topics that used to be forbidden just aren't anymore. There's no way to unring that bell.

But the point of forbidding topics was so that people wouldnt have their achilles heel activated all the time and so that people could meet new people and have new experiences. 

Professionalism and common decency.

People have to handle their own achilles heel. Thats true. Personal responsibility is more important. Common ethics is the best solution. 

If your at a job its more ethical to let someone be at peace in their job to make a living. So let others have their own life.

No one actually governs this. But if enough people agree to have the social skills to recognize approptiate times and places for these types of discussions everyone would be better off. 

Nature has grace so that's not a hard and fast rule. But it's a natural respect thing and would be greatly appreciated if i could work without a wisdom train around me all the time. 

Why some people keep wanting my advice

 Its so they'll feel loved. Some of the most basic of insights I've shared could often just as easily been thought of by someone with half a brain. 

Much of my thoughts and insights came to me organically while facing the dark alone. Thoughts that simply occurred to me because i needed to survive. I realize now that a lot of people probably came to me to avoid having to do that, which they can't. Thats not the nature of how things work. 

I did help to create a sense of grace and glide so that getting out of hell would be easier. 

That was the point of that. But after a certain point no one actually gets to hide from chaos in a structure, because chaos in some form is within and without everywhere. There is no place where chaos doesnt exist. Chaos is the great equalizer. Its the common ground of everything. 

I wouldnt say don't talk to gurus, because I have friends on youtube that make me feel loved too. 

Just stop bothering me at work. I gotta make a living like anyone else. 

And stop asking me questions that y'all should already know the answers too. 

Youre not children. You're adults who need love, not advice. 

Why Lavey was right about owing nothing to psychic vampires

 A psychic vampire is just someone who tried to create false guilt by over giving to get something that its wrong to ask for. 

You have to take responsibility for what you get in any situation and respect my humanity. 

That's a hard rule for me. I won't give anything to anyone just because you gave something to me. If you helped me its because you wanted what's best for me and yourself. 

If you expected more thats your fault not mine. 

Simplicity cleaning

 Without naming names my baby mona thought Skyla was her twin and believed in lesbian twin flames. Only to discover that they just looked alike. She discovered im not her twin either. Her twin was a guy she met on the police force.   

Pride was the only glue that kept that lie in place. My place naturally came in and cleaned that just by being human. 

Cleaning is just bursting through pride glue and staying true to your own humanity. Everything else just takes care of itself. I was just the missing piece of the puzzle that allowed the glue to detach safely so that all the pieces could find their proper place. 

That's why bitterness was never the right response when I found brokenness and pride. Just being human was the proper response. 

For further context read the rest of my blog and think for yourself. 

(Incidentally, the more I got to know Skyla and her traumas all of her lesbian tendencies were just trauma mirroring that lacked connection beneath the surface and was incapable of love until she discovered my pain matched hers. To keep me safe she hid my real trauma underneath her psychic pain. Through the pain we both learned how to love each other. Apart from that either of us could only be sociopathic or Machiavellian.) 

Identical trauma and soul bonds beneath the trauma created innocent love between adults heterosexual male and female parts. 

New info not sure she'd even admit it but I feel. good knowing its true. 

She couldn't take credit for it because that name clever was blessed in my spirit by God. But it did give her space to work with me that blessed her independence apart from needing a blessing by God directly but still indirectly blessed by God through my blessing. Meaning she gained independence by having her spirit blessed by me in new wisdom and not God. 

Which puts us and God in equal friendship terms. 

Being special to someone versus living a special life

 My life has had a special quality. But me myself am no more special than any other human being. The quality of life being lived is what makes a person's life special. 

There are two types of people in the world in this context. There are people who live quality lives and those who compete for a special place in someone else's life. 

The types who have a hard time being single tend to not know the difference. 

How to be a God

 I am the last god born from western mythology. 

My experience is this. It sounds theatrical and extraordinary when i phrase my role as a title: The god of hell. That makes it fun and part of the thing that already exists so as to make relevance immediate and effective. 

But I was born normally. Hell was just extra dimensional earth energy that existed without a true god to fill it because it required the simplicity of innocence to provide proper god like clarity that would make earth a better place. 

The innocence of hell is to know that no one goes to hell because they deserved it. No one did. A proper god needed to be on the surface that had to only absorb the ethic on its purest form.

Me and Skyla both fit. Her angry energy fit perfectly with my clarity that all the suffering in hell was meaningless and pointless.

A person who can absorb dirty water without having to clean it right away takes the lead for that water to make it clean as a center of human innocence. 

Thats how its done and it doesn't need a western Roman Greek or Abrahamic context to do that.

I absorbed that in clear innocence in a love triangle that was going on at the time between me her and Michelle. 

We had a fight. I was young and naive and said stupid things. Michelle forgave me and saw how she was wrong too, me and Michelle fought because Michelle was gay and Skyla wasnt but tried to be and was really in love with me. 

We all found common ground in the dirty water and worked to suvive. I had a child and a family and the healing was centered around the individual me and family first before the world as a whole in line with the God Ethic as mentioned before. 

But there's all types of dirty water to sit in for long term innocence and survival and short term innocence of comraderie and good times with friends and lovers. 

It takes me as the spirit of revenge so that i was able to watch dark things as long as they were clever and ethical as possible so as to keep me from harm. 

Energy that has no proper god is everywhere for someone. If one absorbs something.

Incidently I stayed spiritually married to Skyla and had a baby with someone else. 

That kept our innocence of future love in its pure form without a baby that created a love to be born instead of a baby that crossed oceans.

Worthy of independent study for others interested in a similar path.