Smalls

 There are some things that just aren't other people. 

The flow of energy and the occasional astral guidance isn't that other person. 

Even what the other person would or might prefer me to read or look at or experience isn't necessarily what's best for me. It's what people or a person is guessing what was best for me and would ultimately and inevitably be wrong. The only right course correction that's good in my life can only come from my will, my preferences and my personal drive and will to survive. 

No amount of guidance can replace that or be better than that. 

That being said, without help the will alone would inevitably crash, but at least the will would likely and inevitably be aware that the will needs help from other wills as when the will reaches as far as it can and discovers the need for the will of others to be itself. 

Without this though would be the collective inevitable crash of the whole universe. 

 

The defensiveness of some prevented many from being willing to see this. 

 

The benefit of having a temporary weak will is being exposed to ideas and worlds one would have not been willing to see because desire and accomplishment is what the will is. But desire and accomplishment is only as healthy as one's root desires. 

 

That's why wills had been broken temporarily so as to repair the roots. I sure as hell wouldn't have been willing to see the trees and the forests and the gardens except for I experienced this pain once already.

 

But the will is crucial. 

 

The will is the reminder that everything is superficial and can be reduced to desire and accomplishment no matter how "enlightened" you think you are. You're trying to accomplish something. 

 

The way to simplify that is to be as simple as a human as possible. Eating drinking and other basic human drives. Ambition and success and other things as well. 

 

This is the thin version of irreducible human complexity. The universe isn't you so this is the proper relationship to the universe. Groups aren't you and you can't be a proper friend unless your will and desire is healthy and strong and if your ability to accomplish is steady and habitual. 

 

I'm as small as I can be and I have a perfect relationship as possible to what is.