Rest

 Don't meditate on who you are to someone else. Because that will only ever be what you're expected to be and not who you are. 

You are only as good as your ability to rest on your own terms.

The first step to that is to find life breath that isn't me. If it's not coming from yourself youre going to end up used up dried up and alone. 

And speaking of that, I have a secret admirer who's well established and married. 

Her real problem even as she may or may not understand her attraction to me, is that she doesn't know how to be single. 

She always defined her worth by whatever man or woman she happened to be with and doesn't know how to be on her own romance wise. 

Thats the lesson she's resisting and she has a tendency to try to play the love triangle game with her in the middle but she's the one who craves the dignity and freedom that only being single can provide.

Thats why you couldnt decide on shit honey.