I want to describe my experience as a child discovering who I am. It is just words on a page, but you risk feeling something when you read it. Just know I'm not responsible in this case for how it makes you feel. I'm not some pretentious king to validate your needs. I'm a human being and I need to be sincere and real. Freedom does have it's limits. Like my right to swing my fist ends where your face begins. That's my personal ethic. But writing is a different story. Even if you're astrally connected to me, it's your responsibility to find your own balance, whether by occlomency or by seeking someone else to teach you more suited to your needs.
Goblin scene slightly rewritten to suit my perspective to make it more clear and personal.
Chief Goblin: Ahhhh... What do we have here. Looks like Jamie's been having a bit of fun.
Goblin Soldier: He looks like he's dead.
Chief Goblin looking a little bit closer smiles to himself: This fellow ain't dead.
Uncle Jack looking humble and scared, astonished: Not dead?!
Soldier says: This scum will be awake in a couple of hours.
Chief Goblin: Then he'll wish he were never born.
Uncle Jack: Jack you fool!
Me conversing with the Chief Goblin: Why did you present yourself that way?
Him to me: You knew you wished you were never born already and you put yourself out there anyway. That type of faith and courage deserved some real gift.You're my god.
Me to him: I'm your god, what does that mean?
Him to me: It means that however sinister I look to you, you're the highest ideal that gives me form. The ethic that gives my anger shape.
You're uncle was the god of truth, but he became the king of fools. He stupidly thought it was all about one character defect or another, but was unwilling to face the reality of everything.
As an example, you had faith in him. You trusted him. But you also asked for the right wisdom of social skills from God that protects you even from me. You were clever with God. That makes you the God of hell. Cleverness is the environmental wisdom that only God's equal could be.
Your wisdom is the only thing that would make anything better, or else it would be better that no one had been born.
Me to myself:
People would rather play pretentious spiritual war games and kill every man woman and child than to be good mothers and fathers!
As revenge I will be a good father, because either way everyone's refusal to listen to anybody else would make it better that no one had ever been born.
If you're reading this, be a good father. Be a good mother. Otherwise it would be better that you had never been born.
You exist. And in a poisoned world, even you're kids and neighbors don't know shit about being good.
So just start by knowing that you deserve a good life and fuck everything else.
Because it's better to let a world too afraid to listen to just lay down and die.
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