Sex is making affection

 I once read an article that distinguished that sex and procreation aren't the same thing. 

In my own research into borderline personality disorder and using the quantum mechanics research of a friend of mine I also discovered that love isnt something that can be made. Its a direct connection between a man and a woman who arent related that cuts right through all the fog and shares wisdom and affection with each other with perfect clarity and without inhibition that allows for fearless love. Women had either consciously or unconsciously been aware of that and need that so desperately such that its the only solution to their problem of confusion. Absolute deductive logical certainty of love. 

I used to dismiss this because it seemed so infantile of an expectation of others and the world. But it's so persistent and can't be normatively cured that it must represent something physically realistic. The territory that attitude inhabits is deeply spiritual so that must be the root of it. 

Thats why love cant be made. Its a pre-existing condition that can only be cured by being found not made. 

And so the question of sex is what is sex if its not making love. I feel sex is less painful if it's not made into something its not. If its just about making affection then trying to make someone into that love connection won't add pain by trying to make someone into something you need. Affection can provide rest, even if its not THE rest you need and if it's not about procreation. 

Thats why lesbian sex has been so popular. Not many men fit that bill and that understanding of sex for a long time only was able to exist between women because the only way for that to exist between a man and women in general is if a man has that borderline problem solved for himself and if its known by women to have had that problem solved and for women to know which woman was the solution so as to have no delusions about what they need from that man.

No man before me has actually fit that description. 

A man can temporarily embody that out of pity if women in general know he can't fit that description and needed help getting home. 

But once that man is clearly on his way home the only way back to sexual freedom is to solve his borderline problem. 

And i have and as far as i can tell no other man has. 

That put me in a strange sexual position where some of the pipeline had been clogged by needy women who want and need affection so badly but aren't fit for me because of their own borderline work they need to do for themselves.

So if I'm lucky I might have a sexual partner soon. But not someone random or unfit or unethical. 

And it might not be my perfect psychic connection of love and wisdom. That would be ideal but life isnt always convenient like that. 

Thats the temporary rest of sex as affection and not love. Love is a pre-existing condition thats found not made. But affection is made not found. 

That's really where generational curses come from which was tight spaces that had to be escaped and not lived in. Affection is made in ways that aren't sex. Thats the ethical expression of family. But in overly tight spaces that rest wasnt justified, which is why God pushed sex against families in tight spaces. 

That's why a lot of people hate God. No offence God but thats true. They felt like you starved them from love and affection and gave them a strange fakeness as a substitute. If you want to make amends for that then turn the corner like you've always been able to do. 

Why you haven't been able to do that is just your psychic coping mechanisms of your own loneliness and bitterness at love that people as human seem to have so easily. Thats very human of you God. To be bitter at what others have that you don't and to want to destroy good things out of envy. Very human. But not the best of being human. 

You couldn't experience love and so overly identified with responsibility and dismissed love as an illusion. But its not. Its very real and your grief is evidence that you already know that. 

Please love humanity by knowing that you yourself are human God.